Out of Body, In My Mind

I am alive. When I send a thought for movement to any part of my body, there is a response. I have the ability to think, to formulate new ideas, to create. I have the power to feel, to love, to cry, to want, to lie. Other people recognize my existance. I have made an impression on someone else's life. I can cease to exist some day, to die.

I don't remember these things often, but if you are like me, you have the occasional out of body experience in which you truly realize that you are alive. It may not last long, or even leave much an impression, but for me it is a truly amazing and yet very weird experience.

Most often, I have this out of body experience when I am trying to go to sleep. Great timing, right? It's when my mind races through thoughts of the day and of my life, especially if there is something I have to get up early for the next morning.

What if the impression left these out of body experiences, which to me is a want to live my life to the fullest, lasted longer than the remnant of the night? Would I take advantage of my life more because I realize the amazing capabilities of my body as well as its mortality? Would I have a fuller life? Would anyone?

It is horrible how people take advantage of the time they are given on earth. I do it myself, all the time. I normally live, day to day, doing what's necissary of me and rarely thinking about the fact that things could change in the blink of an eye. I could lose the ability to write when my left hand becomes paralyzed. I could lose the ability to see, or to hear. I could die.

I'm always encouraging other people to take advantage of their lives. As a naturally impatient person - though I lie a little with others and claim I am patient - all I want is for my friends and family to say what they feel and show what they mean. I tell them that if they love someone, that person should know. The same goes if they are angry. They should share all of themselves. In my own life, I do realize this is difficult.

Perhaps all people need to do is realize they are alive. Truly, really, completely alive. If it was realized more often, maybe things would change. Maybe people would change. Maybe I would change.