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i find that a lot of the times, i regret opening up to people. i don't mean in the sense that the things i tell get out to others, but when i've recuperated from whatever emotions that were once affecting me, i feel stupid for having made such a big deal out of things that no longer seem important. especially when i'm sad, i often think differently and say things that are completely desperate and insecure. then later, though i may have meant those things at the time, i wonder how i could have shared my feelings to that extent. i always tend to have thoughts the day after along the lines of, why couldn't i have just held that in for a little longer? why'd i have to let myself become so vulnerable? yet at the moment, vulnerability feels pretty satisfying. i think it has to do with people's reactions to things after the fact. of course if a friend's feeling down, everyone will crowd around and console them for the time being. however if that person later on starts laughing at him/herself, then others will usually join in and agree that he/she overreacted. and when those types of situations come up is when i start to regret opening up. |
cringing at vulnerability
By WrittenSubconscious - Posted on September 4th, 2007
Tagged: insecurity



i believe that vulnerability works against a person because it happens when a person wants to and, therefore, forces himself to not show emotion, ignore stupid comments, or for trying to play it cool. At some point things can't be bottled up inside that it comes out in rage or tears. From at point on, the vulnerability shows its presence more and more, making the strong side of you weaker and weaker.