coke fiends

I was talking to my bestfriend last night & she was telling me about why she decided not to be friends with someone anymore. I asked her why, because she had been friends with her for so long and the girl was a pretty cool person. She told me that she's a cokehead. I knew the girl did really crazy drugs like E & sometimes popped other pills with her ex-boyfriend & another friend of hers, but I didn't know she was snorting coke. I was really suprised.

So, my friend goes on to tell me about ALL of the people she does it with. She told me about the girl I had went to school with in 8th grade & her younger sister, as well as her boyfriend, who had been in my math class in 9th grade. I was soooo shocked. She went on to describe how bad thier condition was, these people had all dropped out of school. She told me that everyday they wake up, a few go to thier part-time jobs, then later they all meet up at an abandoned house the next town over to do lines of coke. A big axs coke party!

I thought it was really ridiculous. Another thing she told me, one of the other girls that they do drugs with was in choir with me in 9th grade & she has dropped out of school & now is stripping and doing drugs as well. My mouth dropped open and I was truly shocked. I didn't want to believe it. Like... the emotions that were running through me were indescribable. It's not like I liked these people before, but it just seemed so real. I knew that coke was a problem, I have heard rumors of people in my school doing it, and yeah, I knew it was like a realistic thing that people just liesurely did, but it seemed like this time, it really hit me. It felt like I was just sitting in class next to one of these girls yesterday. & now they're NOTHING. They are low life's, no education past junior or a portion of senior year, stripping, simplistic part-time jobs, and hanging out at an abandoned house doing drugs.

& no it's already bad enough they smoke ciggarettes & get drunk everyday & do coke & do E, but they do other drugs too. they've messed with heroin, and one girl does diet pills & coke so that she can get really skinny.

I don't know why I care so much. I'm just like, disappointed. I would've never thought that I would be sitting right next to someone in class, and the next 3 years they would be dropping out & hooked on drugs. I wanted to cry last night. I just was thinking about life & I realized, SHxT'S REAL. Even though it's unfortunate, this is real life. I would've never thought this would hit so close to home.