I'm afraid to go to college - true confessions of a high-school senior.

RhapsodyGirl's picture
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I am afraid to go to college.

Although I am an honors student and have already been offered scholarships I never thought I'd get, I am scared out of my mind of what things may come once I cross the threshold and receive my diploma.

Sure, I am a proud member of the "maybe-if-I-tell-people-how-ready-to-grow-up-and-move-away,-I'll-convince-myself-in-the-process" club. I am not calling myself immature, though. I just havea fear of the realistic unknown.

I'm afraid that once I get there, I will find myself to be considered among the most unintelligent and cocky people on campus if I try to act confident instead of like my truly shy self.

I'm afraid that the freshman 15 will turn into the freshman 50 (:= (lol)

I'm afraid that I will be greeted at my dorm room door by the moaning of my roommate having sex with some random guy off the streets of our campus on a nightly basis and never actually get to study or sleep.

I'm afraid that I will fail college English, and never fufill my favorite part of the idea of double-majoring in English and Pre-Med- the part where I get to fulfill my passion for writing and not get mocked for it.

I'm afraid to put myself out there for people to get to know because so many people have taken advantage of my emotions in the past that I can't be sure whom to trust.

I'm afraid that I'll talk too much and listen too little.

I'm afraid that the best things in life will pass me by so quickly that I won't haev time to apprecaite them as they happen.

I'm afraid that Med School will harden me and change me into an emotionless being who rote-memorized her whole 4 years of undergraduate studies and learned nothing.

I'm afraid that I won't have enough time to make a huge difference in the world, since there aren't enough seconds in a day.

I'm afraid that my writing will never reach out and touch anyone, and that my passion will have gone to waste.

But, more than anything, I'm afraid to fear the future, so here's my first step, and here's to countless more...

jane_T's picture
Member of the Progressive U Alumni Association

Hey, we're all scared by that stuff. The thing that makes you different is that you're not rarin' to go get drunk and sex your brains out, you're actually thinking about this next time of your life. Hey, being aware that you might possibly sometimes come across as cocky is the first step in not actually becoming that way.

Don't worry, a lot of the scary things are extremes. Hey, get yourself a $5 Wal-mart emergency airhorn so you can go carolling when the moaners and the rapsters get out of hand =). And the freshman 15? Some people gain it, some people lose it. I knew more people that had to buy belts or walk around campus holding their pants up... just avoid the beer and pizza at 3am (when your metabolism isn't awake).

I don't mean to freak you out, but my dad decided NOT to go into medicine because he didn't want to be hardened to certain things. Some people are meant to be doctors, some people aren't.

Relax =) I think the fact that you give a rip says you'll do a lot better than you think.

nica0802's picture

I am a high school student myself but unlike you i am junior. but i know what you ARE FEELING. i think ABOUT IT TO. THAT i will be on failing all my classes and not be considered smart like i am now in high school. but i have several older siblings. my oldest sister graduated and she is just as skinny as she was when she started college. my other sister is graduating in a few months and she had some downs but she is getting that diploma. you just take one day at a time. and you will get used to it. and be friendly and urself and join clubs so yo can meet people like yourself.
"Trying is Failing with honour."

Morganista's picture

As a High School Senior myself I feel the exact same way. I know that compared to the rest of the US my grades are average pretty high, but here in my hometown I feel unprepared and it doesn't help that todays socitey makes us feel unprepared. It's so competative these days that it sucks. The world is so unstable and everyone is so unsure of what tomorrow will bring.

My advice to you, myself and every other senior in the world is that it's our generation that will be the source of change. We can change everything and you know what if we all just rebell against the status quo then we've got something on our sides, we have change and a couple thousand some odd voices. Our futures are yes undecided and unpredictable but, your fear is normal and fear leads to great success.

You'll be fine, we'll all be fine and if at some point we're not fine we'll pick ourselves up and become fine because, that's what humans do we carry on.

dannathemanna's picture

I am too. But I know that I'll live and from what I hear it's going to be one of the funnest and best experiences of our lives!

hooray for college!

It is a big transfer, but a new environment. Where you meet new people and friends. You will be just fine.

itcanhappen's picture

Aww, sweet girl! You are going to have the time of your life! You are going to meet sooo many people. You are going to be surrounded by thinkers and fun people for 4 years straight. Yes, there is a lot of work associated with college (for most of us, anyway). But the experiences are incredible... do community service, go to ethnic mixers on campus, build a family of close friends, learn how to cook, read read read! I love it. I think the fours years of college will increase your love of people and life... that way when you get to med school it won't harden you because you've already lived so much!!!!

I thought that college was going to be great. then i thought about how scary it was going to be. i grew up in the same town my whole life. never had to change schools and be the new kid. fortunately, my best friend in high school and i go to the same school. i knew that i would have at least one friend. NOTE: do not live with your best friend in one room. it USUALLY does not work out.

Me and my best friend are no longer roomates. We used to do everything together and now we hardly speak, but are on good terms. College is a wonderful life experience full of change and new things. Just make sure you go out and experience stuff, especially those first few weeks. two days of being on campus i had a new group of friends hanging out in my dorm, complaining about having to start class the next day. Also, make friends with people who live on your hall. that way you can know who is making all the loud noise at 3 AM and kindly tell them to shut up.

I think that you will do fine in college. i had to learn to not worry so much about what other people think, and get on to the important parts of college, which includes hanging with friends on the weekend, as well as studying for those pesky tests. just make sure you balance academia with your social life, or else you will have no social life at some point in order for you to not flunk out of school.

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Member of the Progressive U Alumni Association

A lot of things will change when you go away to college. Some changes will be subtle and some will be dramatic. The truth is, you probably won't end up doing what you think you want to do now, once you really get going at school. Its a small minority that's goes to college and keeps the same major and career goals for four years. I loved Chemistry in high school and I was really good at it, so I went into college as a Pharmacological Chemistry major planning to be a pharmacist. Now that I'm taking classes, it turns out I love my linguistics classes.

You should find out exactly what is involved in getting into medical school. If you're up to the challenge, more power to you. But there are thousands upon thousands of fulfilling careers. If you don't end up being a doctor you will find so many other ways to help people.

Common sense is as rare as genius. ~Emerson

KmarieB's picture

As my Mother would say; "Welcome to real life."
She doesn't understand that her phrase only makes it worse.
I am also a high school senior this year, however, I am not a
honors student. I don't have the luxury of pre-approved
scholarships, but I do have decent grades.

I fear the day I will be recieving my diploma, because that will be my first class ticket to adulthood.

But what I always try to remember, and what I think you should as well, is that so many people have gone to college and survived it. You are going to have your hard times, and your good times. You just have to trust in yourself, and you will do fine. If you put your mind to it, your writings will touch people, and you will do an extraordinary job. You just have to push all the fear aside, and believe in yourself.

cruz042's picture

first of all, just be yourself. to be happy and be relieved of worries, be yourself.
and stop thinking too much. you're analyzing things too closely and that's why you're overwhelmed. don't worry about the scary things in college. think about the positive things, get involved in campus and like i said, be yourself. if you stay scared, you'll never get ahead in life. face your fears. it's okay, as long as you have your family and friends to catch you if you fall.... =]

radiospirit's picture

for a short period of time i actually reconsidered college, because even though i've excelled in high school with no real effort, i was terrified that i would do all that work to get into college just to find out i couldn't do it. i can assure you that the thought still crosses my mind all the time.
they say fear and pleasure are two of the most closely related feelings (contrary to the formerly accepted belief that pain and pleasure are the two most closely related feelings), so i guess you just have to take the fear with the pleasure on that one, eh? :)

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shortstella's picture

I'm also a senior in high school. College does seem pretty scary. The only thing i'm afraid about is the hard knowledge. I know i can do it. I mean I'm on the top 10 % of my class. I can tell that it's going to be hard. But I have a ton of college friends, and it's great. They explain their stories and stuff to me. It's really awesome.

Try to see if you can go and shadow someone in college. I'm sure it'll be no problem. Made the best of college. It'll be fun.

Krystella, 17 years old.
shortstella@gmail.com

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