I look back at last year, and where I was in life. I was going to school, from school to work, from work to home. At home to band practice (had a band, and also played at church), or out yet again to spend time with a girlfriend. My days were busy, really busy. If something didn't work out, I always had something else to get done, or someone else to do something with. I was productive..or as I like to think of it....I was in the zone.
Now I do none of that. I have no responsibilities. I quit my full-time job. I am not going to any schooling (yet), and I no longer have a girlfriend or band.
So what happened?
Have I reached my most prosperous point? I've felt quite down in the past weeks since I quit my job. Sort of worthless, fruitless, and unproductive. Maybe this is me in my place. Maybe during that last year of high school things were inflated, a bit obtuse, and because of that I got a big head. It seems sort of unlikely, but then again maybe I was meant to feel low on the food chain.
I plan on going to school next semester. Hoping to find a decent job soon, and trying to piece together what exactly IS and why it's that way. Nothing is set in stone. Me staying here and going to school is just as possible as me leaving for the life of a wanderer.
Maybe you'll see me on "Deadliest Catch", of course it would have to be next season. Mike Rowe mentioned that the new season is starting soon...Actually it might of started today.
I think I'll take a lighter note on my next entry...Like Gun Control, or Abortion. Or both. Both of those together.
You can do anything you want. You just have to focus in on it and not let it out of your sight. You have control over your future.
Never settle for less. There is no reason because you only get one go at life so who cares what was meant to be. A good saying for this comment "shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars." It's a bit dreamy but it has a good point.