Currently, we are satiated by overindulgence, such as reality television shows, online communities, the night life. Where is our humanity leading us to now? Does individuality or self-esteem exist anymore within our generation? In many cases, no.
Let me tell you, I am no hypocrite. I have lived this life, and I believe I still do. Over years of actually admitting to defeat I finally realized what has overcome. What lead me to this apathetic road? I have analyzed beyond belief and found that what I was looking for was not the memory I seek to suppress but the habits I do to ignore them. We have been brainwashed to observe others, not allowing us to give a mind of our own. We observe others in reality shows, we research and read about others in myspace/ facebook, and somehow we find ourselves in front of electronic apparatus jaded and not aware of what we have become.
If I am able to do the math, which I highly doubt I can; I can estimate that I have spent more than half of my life behind a computer and television. If I was not there, I would be figuring out ways to do anything more amusing to fill up my time. Yes, jaunting about with friends and experiencing the nightlife may be fulfilling, but up to an extent. It's hard to say ladies and gentlemen, but our mothers were right. Too much "outings" can stray you from what you are trying to set for your future. I am not saying that going out once in a while is not a bad thing, I mean it is a great way to network to the outside world, but you just need that balance.
We survive by finding substitutes for our misery. Life is hard so we find ways to forget it. We seek for joy. But what I have understood is that joy may not be manipulated. Generally, we may plan to go on vacations for a certain amount of time but once that time limit has been attained; where do you stand after that? Joy is what you find in yourself. Joy finds you. According to love, you need to love yourself. And with joy, it is the same thing; love yourself and others and joy is what will emerge.
With this thought, I need to re-prioritize my priorities as well as myself. I need to let go of the things that have left me jaded and alone. I have decided to switch television and internet for reading and writing. School will be my number one, and family is my right hand. Will I find myself, the true self I have always wished to be? Just come along the journey where I will break the habit.
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Very well said! There is far too much emphasis on the media and other's opinions. I wrote a recent blog on my mental eating disorder that was pretty much perpetuated by what others thought and the media provoked. I was so naive. But my life now is about looking at what I want, and I think it's important to make self esteem a priority.
Great work :]
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Thank you very much for the compliment! I'm glad to hear about your accomplishments, keep up the good work! I totally agree with the whole self-esteem issue, that should come first before anything!
<3 Deanna
It's kinda pathetic when we finally realize how much time we spend in front of the TV or the computer, isn't it? :)
But admitting it is half the challenge! Huh, maybe I'll go work on some creative writing now.....good idea!
I'm glad you agree! Thank you for the comment!
<3 Deanna