I stand out in many different ways: my kindness, my willingness to do things crazy, my being able to connect to people, and ... my race. Why is it so hard for people to see beyond the exterior of a person. There are more parts to me than my race. Its what I am and kind of part of who I am, but it isn't what defines me. I've grown up in a communities where I've always been the minority. In my high school currently I am the only black person in my class.
If I was a boy I know it would be way different than the experience that I've had. The girls would love me and want to be with me. But thats not the case the boys simple dont want me because I'm black, they are to afraid of what their parents and buddies would think. I have an amazing personality people say. They tell me how beautiful I am, I've even gotten oppurtunies to model and have declined.
Living in my area being black isn't beautiful, I even found myself believing that for the longest time. The mold of beauty here is blonde, skinny, blue eyes, and white. Getting older after years of wishing I was in that mold even willing to do anything to be in that mold, I've realized it can be beautiful but there are other forms of beauty. WHY DOES A MOLD EVEN HAVE TO EXIST!!! There are many forms of beauty it isn't fair to have that mold. That mold is what causes girls to be depressed and leaning over the toilet after every meal.
America has an issue when it comes to beauty the girls that aren't what are considered "beautiful" in the society in which they live in are self destructing themselves when they have no reason. They don't realize that because people say they don't see them as being hot and the perfect ten doesn't mean that they aren't. There are people that believe that they are beautiful and its hard for people to go against what is said to be the majority favor when it isn't.
Americans need to break that mold so my future children and their peers don't have to deal with this mold of beauty and be happy for who they are not wishing that they were different.
I think people spend too much time caring what other people might think. This is especially sad when it comes to preventing them from doing what they want. It's too bad that this happened to you but I'm glad you put it in the "better future" category. With people like you working to turn the tide, I'm sure it will be a better future! Also, I think that your children will have a great asset having you as a mom.
I'm glad you understood it, I kinda just spilled it all out with out planning it out first..eeks. O and thank you for the compliment I hope I will be a good mom one day.
I understand it can be an isolating experience to be the only black person within a given area. It is very detrimental to many ladies for their beauty and uniqueness to be measured against the mold of beauty when you are not white, skinny, blond hair, and have blue eyes. If you every read Toni Morrison's The Bluest Eyes the little girl suffers from a similar experience of wanting to have blue eyes. This sort of mentality was one of the main reasons for the "Black is Beautiful" movement during the late 60's and early 70's. As black people we most define beauty within a society that is built around a standard that we cannot copy. We have to define our own beauty. You can do this by learning about your people, and you will see the beauty. And I am not talking about inner beauty, Black women are beautiful outside and inside, I hope you keep that in mind as you travel life's journey. Hopefully, in college you will get to know more black people, because your people are your history, and without your history, you cannot know who you are...
It's impossible to be an artist and a bread winner at the same time. Sometimes I think I oughta chuck the whole business.
-Amiri Baraka
I'm glad that you have come to find a strong identity for yourself amidst an extremely isolating environment (being the only black person in a school...wow) I really like what you have to say about beauty and perceptions of beauty. The media and Hollywood are truly developing a warped picture. Keep up the good work.
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I really like what you've said. It's obvious that you're both strong and beautiful, regardless of any mold. Do I really need to tell you? You know that. Anywho, get out of wherever you are the first chance you get...not every place is full of people so willing to fulfill the beauty ideals that are force-fed to us. And about the guys, any of them worth your time shouldn't give a damn about your race, right? I know that doesn't take away the sting.. because none of them should care to begin with...but it will get better.
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