Don’t you dare judge me like I have an easier life then yours.
Do not mistake that tension you feel as disdain for your life.
My eyes glancing away and me leaving as quickly is possible has nothing to do with you.
I am not avoiding you as much as you may think.
It is me.
The curiosity, the questions, eagerness, the jealousy at times is all mine.
Do not assume I am anti gay or that I hate you.
My life is about as hard as yours, if not more so.
What? Why? How do you figure?
Very good, no jumping to conclusions, only questions and answers.
I am the same as you
Simply, I am you on the other side of the choice you made.
It’s not a choice; people do not choose to be homosexual!
Your right, but our actions are.
I was disgusted by my own thoughts of equating the choice to murder.
Murder is inherently bad. Homosexuality is not.
It is more like spanking your child.
The choice is the parent’s.
The out come can be different.
It could be good or bad, varying on the individual.
One is accepted and the other is not depending on where you are at.
I chose to marry a man.
I was trapped and I knew my choice.
I knew the torture and what to expect from both sides.
I live in peace.
I am happy for the most part.
I have children.
A man I picked as close to what I wanted as I could.
I see you living my dream.
I see you making my choices.
My choice slowly becomes more foolish as time goes on.
Progress is being made.
My life is dictated yours will be fine.
You now can choose more.
You can decide your life.
Your freedom can be made.
You can live freely.
Dear girl who will you marry?
Be free to make your choice outside the confines of fear.
Live without abhorrence.
Love that you may, love who you want.
What can I do so I do not happen more?
So
Do not judge me as hateful.
Do not cry for my choice.
Just know that you can and that I did not.
Nobody else knows just you.
Wow, this is really good! I've never seen anything written in this way before. Definitely a 5 in my book!
Also, would all of you readers out there please take the time to rate the blogs you're reading? 12 people have read this so far, and I am the first one to rate. It doesn't make your computer reload the page, so there's really no reason not to.
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Here I go seconding your motions again.
This blog is definately written diffrently and from a diffrent perspective. And I did vote and more people need to do so more often. Have a good day.
~T
All truths are easy to understand once discovered; The point is to discover them ~Galileo
Thank you so much, I was really nervous to post here the way i did and I am glad you did not think I am dumb.
There were always in me, two women at least,
one woman desperate and bewildered,
who felt she was drowning and another who
would leap into a scene, as upon a stage,
conceal her true emotions because they
were weaknesses, helplessness, despair,
and
I like this but I think you perception of lesbians is flawed. I understand that straight girls have to put up with choosing between what they want to do and what is expected of them, but lesbians also have to put up with that. For one thing, there are MANY lesbians in the closet who are still expected to marry a man. And even those who are out have to deal with people who expect them to be with someone of their own race, religion, etc. Lesbians are still expected to fit into either the "butch" or "femme" category. Not to mention all the lesbians who have parents that still expect them to somehow grow out of this "phase" and marry a man, even aware that their daughter is a lesbian. There's more dictating your life than just your sexual orientation.
I chose to marry a man.
I'm happy that you can make the choice to marry a man, because as it stands most lesbians cannot make the choice to marry a woman (in the legal sense).
If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed...nothing shall be impossible unto you. - Matthew 17:20
I may just be out of the loop but I thought they just legalized same sex marriages in some places. I do not really follow the news to much but I thought that it was already legal somewhere else.
~T
All truths are easy to understand once discovered; The point is to discover them ~Galileo
It is legal in two places: Massachusetts and California. But not everyone can afford to go to one of those states to get married.
If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed...nothing shall be impossible unto you. - Matthew 17:20
I do not think my perspective is flawed.
You pretty much have it right when you said "MANY lesbians in the closet who are still expected to marry a man," many of us do.
The point is that we can not judge each other and create divides amongst the 'people' community.
We need to keep working so that others may be free to be who they are and do not feel stuck and chose follow assigned roles, the same way I did.
There is way more dictating my life then my sexual orientation, given that my life and S.O. do not parallel.
Thank you for commenting, you made some really awesome points.
We all have choices and difficulties, lets not make it worse giving one group more credit then they should.
Label free society.
There were always in me, two women at least,
one woman desperate and bewildered,
who felt she was drowning and another who
would leap into a scene, as upon a stage,
conceal her true emotions because they
were weaknesses, helplessness, despair,
and
Now I see. I wasn't quite sure where you were coming from. Also, sorry if my comments came off as harsh. It's just that every now and then there is a post with people complaining about minority groups and how easy they have it/ how oppressed the majority are. Now your post reads differently.
If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed...nothing shall be impossible unto you. - Matthew 17:20
I think this is the most intelligent and true thing I've read all night:
"The point is that we can not judge each other and create divides amongst the 'people' community."
I agree with you all the way. World peace starts here.
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Because of your name I decided to go on a commenting craze, thanks,
I do not know if it is just me but it seems I might have read this diffrently then everyone else so far and difrently then you meant.
To me it sounds like your coming out of the closet while staying in. If that is the case I am not sure how you can live so locked up. You need to talk to more then just the faceless internet, I am sure your husband will love you anyway.
Was this hard for you to write?
...Of course that is if I read right.
~T
All truths are easy to understand once discovered; The point is to discover them ~Galileo
I was kind of confused about that also.
If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed...nothing shall be impossible unto you. - Matthew 17:20
Being honest, esspecially about this, is never simple and fun, till your use to it.
I actually keep looking around to see that no one else does.
The 'faceless internet' has saftey sometimes.
I knew what I was doing when I made my choice.
I did more then chose this, I chose not to fight too.
I did not see the future to see the changes that are coming
I wish I had not abandoned my sisters
Changing my cushion after all these years is scary hard.
I need love and familiar arms.
Thank you for asking T and not just guessing.
There were always in me, two women at least,
one woman desperate and bewildered,
who felt she was drowning and another who
would leap into a scene, as upon a stage,
conceal her true emotions because they
were weaknesses, helplessness, despair,
and
You are in a fairly intense situation. Having been there (sort of...I didn't actually get married), I understand the feeling of being trapped or of giving up. The problem is, that part of you never dies and never sits as quietly as you would like it to. That was my experience anyway.
Now I'm in a different world than you inhabit, and I wish I had some words of wisdom for you. But I don't. I chose to be honest with myself and others, damn the consequences. I've suffered my share of losses as a result, too. Who's to say who made the right choice?
Good blog. Painful to read.
http://www.progressiveu.org/blog/ediblewoman
It was painful to read! At first I didn't get it, but the moment I did my stomach sank.
I haven't been in any situation like this as far as sexual orientation goes, but I have been in a situation where I did something just to please everyone else and later regretted it. I'm sure everyone here has. In this case, however, it's much bigger than that.
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I try to be as honest as I can.
esspecially with myself.
I think we had made the right for ourselves.
Maybe one day I will be free like you.
To freedom aye, Thanks for whatever input you have.
You are a very thoughtful person.
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There were always in me, two women at least,
one woman desperate and bewildered,
who felt she was drowning and another who
would leap into a scene, as upon a stage,
conceal her true emotions because they
were weaknesses, helplessness, despair,
and