Truth

Truth. Just on that one word, I think I have the most diverse emotions towards. It's a great thing... I always want the truth. Because then I know for real what's going on... instead of being lied to. But then again... the truth can suck at the same time. It could be the worst thing ever in some situations. But even though lying may seem better than telling the truth sometimes, it's not. Because then you have to keep lying and keep up with your lies and remember every little detail about your lie because to the person you told, that's the truth. Even if that lie doesn't mean anything to you and you just go on with your life, one person may remember every little thing about that lie. Things that you thought weren't important. It just screws you over in the end more than telling the truth.

Everyone has been in the situation. Whether it be the person having to tell the cold, hard truth... or the person that's being told. Either position that you're in... it's not easy. And it's not fun.

But you know... I think the little white lies are just as horrible as the bolder lies. Or at least in the end, they size up to be just as bad. Because think about it... If someone is going to lie about something as small and stupid as a website, what's going to stop them about lying about other things? Things that really ARE relevant and important. You want someone that you can trust and that will always tell you the truth... no matter what it's about. Because that's what ANY relationship is about... honesty and truth. Being able to trust the other person.

All I want is the truth. Always. Even if it's something stupid and little or even if it'll rip my heart apart. I'd want the truth... not some lie to make me feel better and to keep me from getting mad at the person. Because it always seems that I find out about the lie through some way. And then, it's just a million times worse... for both me and the other person. I'll hold it in - at first - and I'll let it eat away at my insides and tear me apart because I know that you lied to me. I'd bottle it up inside until I finally explode and then my reaction to the situation is probably about... 10 times worse than it would have been. I hate that about myself.

But what do you do when you know someone lied to you... but you find out by sneaking around and snooping through their stuff? Do you still have a right to get mad at them? Because really... in a sense, you're on the same level as they are. It's back and forth. "You did it because you don't trust me" 'Well this is the exact reason I don't trust you'. No person wins. No situation wins. Because... the person lying. Well, they lied. And to me, that's one of the worst things a person can do (especially in a relationship). And the other person... they snooped around through the liar's stuff. Was it for a good reason though? To find out the truth. Sounds like a good enough reason to me.

Honestly, it's kind of sad that this is what it's become to people. That you have to snoop around and go behind another person's back just to find out the truth. People have become so accustomed to lying that it's nothing to them anymore. But what they don't realize that it's everything to the other person. And it really puts a strain on relationships.