I'm SO SORRY of course It has to be MY FAULT

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I'm sorry that I wasn't enough for you to stay. And of course since I was the faithful one, and the girl, it MUST be all my fault. When in all reality, none of it is my fault. Thank you for lying to me, cheating on me, breaking my heart and then blaming me. Um...sorry...no. That's not how this is gonna work.

I would love to know how him cheating on me is my fault. What did I do to "deserve" this and why did I feel like I should at least try to talk about it? Let's start with the long list of lies, shall we?
1. I love you.---if you loved me you wouldn't have cheated.
2. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.--once again.....see above
3. I won't hurt you.--bull.
4. I would never cheat on you.--ok. sure you wouldn't
5. I can't wait to see you at my Marine graduation.--whatever. keep lying.....
6. You are everything I want.---then why did you sleep with her?
This list could go on forever, but I'm attempting to make a point...so here's my point....
We weren't in love. We might have been at one point in time, but that has long past. We were trying to hold onto something that slipped away.

We changed. There is nothing we could do about that. It happens. I'm not sorry for changing. I'm proud of who I am. Not of who I was. People change. For better or worse depends on the person's point of view. Circumstances in our daily lives force us to make decisions that eventually shape who we are and who we become. People grow apart everyday. No one is to blame. But when one of them does something wrong (cheating) he/she shoud own up to it and take full responsibility for their actions. I hate how everyone in our world today has trouble with taking responsibility for the things they do. If you do something you supposedly hate, its ok. You won't die for doing something wrong. I think that people should take some time and find themselves, and then they should be true to themselves. People shouldn't change for someone else. Ever. I refuse to take the blame for someone else's actions. I refuse to change who I am for anyone.

Euro_Girl21's picture

Sorry ur b/f cheated on u and broke your heart.
I'll be honest with you though. You say you weren't in love anymore! How do u know he wasn't in love with you? Why did u stay in that relationship when u couldn't give him the emotional support he might have needed? I know you are going to say u know he didn't love you because he cheated. But it is very easy to blame the cheater without ever thinking what was it that made him/her cheat.

good luck

fkj008's picture

I actually had this conversation with him as I was writing this....I aked him why he did it and he said he didn't know. But he told me that it wasn't really my fault. But for some reason I have a feeling it had to do with me. But Idk...I also ended up telling him that I was done with the conversation and that I was done with him.. I think that was a little bit mean and bitchy of me tho...

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You have a right to be mean and witchy. You were cheated on. He broke a commitment to you, so it is normal for you to be angry.

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Don't go back to him. Things will never work out with a cheater. Once a cheater, always a cheater. If you don't love him anymore then yes you will always have memories but dont let that hold you back.

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fkj62308's picture

We actually talked about everything. He didn't cheat on me so now I feel kinda bad about writing this...but oh well. He told me he cheated so I would break up with him. We are still friends and I'm not gonna get back together with him. Too complicated anymore. lol
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