i was on fastwebs.com looking at various scholariship information, seeing as how that time has been rapidly creeping up on me these past few months.
it's a scary thought isn't it?
this time of such growth, such metamorphisis.
it's now when we choose what to do with our lives, who we will be.
i really shouldn't say who we will be. your careerpath or current means of employment are two completely inaccurate ways of defining a person.
what i mean is,
this is the time we've been dreaming of for years.
waiting for, wishing for,
endlessly longing for.
you know, "getting out of this place", starting our "real lives."
getting away from all the things that presently cause us grief.
and i'm thinking that while everything is going to change, at the same time, nothing is going to change.
sure, we'll escape what ails us here at our present location,
but those stresses and anxieties are only to be replaced by all new stresses and anxieties.
wow, do i seem like a pessimist right now?
i don't know.
but nonetheless, i am both ecstatic and reluctant to be filling out these scholarship applications.
ecstatic because these applications serve as an overshadowing of what's to come.
more responsibility,
more choices.
more life.
but reluctant, because honestly,
what if i fail?
what if i prove irresponsible?
what if i make terrible choices?
what if i fail at life?
it's something we all struggle with right now, and something we all rejoice in right now.
atleast i think so,
atleast i hope so.
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There is no failing at life.
And to your first statements, about questioning where its headed.
I like the saying I've come up with.
"The only time it's good to follow in someone elses tracks is in the snow."
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Everything, you have done, and will do, is chemically predisposed by matter, even the fact you are reading this message. You make no choices, only perceive a given reality.
There's no failing at life?
what in the world/???? are you serious?
do you honestly think that no one "fails" at life?
Yes I am serious, there is no failing at life.
It is not a win or lose game, you may have been influenced and propagaded into thinking it is, but its simply not.
There is no failing at life because life is something that happens to you, you're not something that happens to life(like a self-centered materialist might believe)
If you want to fire back and ask why then I'll explain it in my logical depth, that I leave up to you.
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Everything, you have done, and will do, is chemically predisposed by matter, even the fact you are reading this message. You make no choices, only perceive a given reality.
Well a lot of things are given to you.
Students dont have a choice to go to school just as we dont have a choice to be born.
And students can surely fail at school.
and there are plenty of things like this that I can pull if you would like more examples.
You can certainly fail at life.
I love when you say "and start our real lives."
I used to say this a lot, after high school I will start living my real life. Then i was like shooooot this IS my life. I am living right now, and I dont need to justify myself not doing anything useful with the fact that this isnt my "real life."
The basement scene before he hands out the packets with objectives..
You'll enjoy how it puts things.
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Everything, you have done, and will do, is chemically predisposed by matter, even the fact you are reading this message. You make no choices, only perceive a given reality.
Gosh I've heard that this movie is amazing. I unfortunately haven't gotten around to watching it.
I will make a point to watch that movie hopefully this weekend!
Great movie I've seen it like 20 times and got the dvd.
My friend used to watch it every day in highschool lol.
Dont have kids around tho, and if you're a conformist, try not to get offended.
Everything, you have done, and will do, is chemically predisposed by matter, even the fact you are reading this message. You make no choices, only perceive a given reality.
Is that last part from the movie?
I have heard so much about it!
a conformist? no.
and no kids? I am a kid.
I'm just saying it's sort of an anti-establishment type movie.
A free thought sparker, as long as you're over 14 I would think the movie wouldn't really hurt you to see. I also advise watching it at least 2 times, you'll catch more, and it will catch you more. Enjoy
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Everything, you have done, and will do, is chemically predisposed by matter, even the fact you are reading this message. You make no choices, only perceive a given reality.
Is that last part from the movie?
I have heard so much about it!
a conformist? no.
and no kids? I am a kid.
Ahhh, I've actually been meaning to watch that.
I've received excellent reviews concerning it.
There's been a lot of movies i've been "meaning to watch."
I should really get going on that I suppose.
I love when you say "and start our real lives."
I used to say this a lot, after high school I will start living my real life. Then i was like shooooot this IS my life. I am living right now, and I dont need to justify myself not doing anything useful with the fact that this isnt my "real life."
I think so many kids get caught up in that thinking, and it's sad because they end up just wasting the first years of their lives. I possessed that attitude for a while and thankfully I caught myself. I still carry that attitude on occassion, but luckily I somehow get a slap in the face and get back on track. Haha.
Every now and then I have a complete breakdown.
I think that i am not living. I get this attitude that this is just high school...it doesnt really matter that I'lm not doing anything. Then I catch myself.
This is when I get really sad, because I realize that I''m not doing anything. If I were to die tomorrow, what would change? What am I here for? I am doing the same thing over and over, and noting of importence.
Thats when you learn to speak your mind and bounce back from the bottom
This world isn't here to impress, screw um or "fug gum" as I say, there is no real prupose in the monetary system, just find a hobby and music you enjoy, get by and live, try to enjoy some of it . :)
Everything, you have done, and will do, is chemically predisposed by matter, even the fact you are reading this message. You make no choices, only perceive a given reality.
I enjoy what i do.
but the fact that I dont directly affect anything upsets me.
I am not helping anyone, which I know is what i'm here to do.