today i went to work at 11:58 am. i was early. i said hi to 2 people before reaching the back room where i put my purse in a locker of my choice. i asked my manager where she would like me to stand and she told me to go to the back room. (its where all the clearance stuff is) anyways, it was really slow today. i had to work til 5 and i didnt have money to eat lunch. i should have brought something but i forgot. now i have a headache. even though i just ate.
i hate that. when you dont eat and then you get really hungry. and then your stomach hurts bad. and then youre just not hungry anymore. and then you get a headache. and you have to take a nap to make it go away. i usually dont do that to myself but more work...its kind of regular. anyways..(please dont preach to me about eating disorders...because i dont have one. im just lazy. lol)
ive been working at my job for about a month now. ive gotten like 40 hours total. stupid right? i hate that. i need to find another job. but whatever.
anyways (ferreal)
i work at abercrombie and fitch. (its funny cuz sometimes when i tell people ..they ask me if im a lawyer...? bc it sounds like a firm i guess.) and im not a "abercrombie&fitch-girl" you know what i mean? i more artsy. and i like to dress differently. and its sometimes annoying to get dressed for work because i cant wear what i want to wear. but its way better than a uniform. of course.
sometimes when im working i feel like i have to try to fit in. and it reminds me of when i was a kid and i think i was in like 5th grade. yes, actually...it wass 5th grade. my whole homeroom was those "abercrombie-types" totally like, gonna-be football players/cheerleaders....and my parents had just gotten divorced and my dad got me terrible haircuts so i looked like a bum compared to them. i remember being out on the playground and trying to make friends with these "types" because obviously i knew them...and it would be easier to say hi to someone you know than not..? i guess. but they made me stupid...they probably made fun of me..i dont remember. haha. but its the same feeling. trying to 'fit in'. and its stupid.
there are a couple of people who are pretty cool there. but everyone is decked out in abercrombie. i dont like abercrombie because i refuse to pay $25 bucks for a see-through shirt..but thats just me. i dont know. its weird. (life is weird) ..haha.
but, i dont understand why people think they are better than me. well, not that. not exactly. but, people there think theyre the shit because ohhhhhh! they work at abercrombie! cool fucking beans. ?? i dont get it. i started working there as a second job because someone referred me. and said that i would def get hired. and i did. and its cool. but people are intimidating. and i feel like a turtle. the end.
ps: if you really knew who i was...im not really this complain-titive. or something. and im not this sad. but i guess i have to tell someone. right?
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