The burden stopping you from college. part 2

I couldn't put myself to kill someone. Even if I wasn't the person going in there and taking them out. Letting someone else take care of it and I feel bad till the day I die , well couldn't do that eitheir.Keeping it would be a lot of work. But I told myself I would go ahead and keep the baby.

The hardest part about keeping the little one was telling people. I didn't want people to think that I was some kind of slut. I didn't want my parents to be dissappointed in me. I was not ready for society's judgement.Went to tell my mom. She was so laid back about it. Went to tell my Dad. He was disappointed in me. He later accepted it though. I feel that it was hard for him to accept it because he looked at me as his little girl. Plus I didn't finish college yet and that did not help with a baby on the way.

Then I had my boyfriend . Oh yeah I had only been with for about four months. Luckily he said he would help me with the baby. But at first I was so scared that he would leave. Then the last thing I wanted was to file child support on him. I also did not want to be added to the population of single mothers.

As far as pregnancy , it did not start to get to bad until the 4th month. My back would go out on me at times, I felt like I was huge, vomitted the whole time and etc. The only good part out of it I felt was the baby kicking.

Well everything seemed to not be so bad until one dreadful day.I came from the doctors offfice for my regular pregnancy check up . My fiance was in the car driving .We are down the street from the doctors office when a man stops on Gaston st. This is in dallas texas. I tell my non paying attention lover to stop the car. We are inches away from the guys car when he made the stop. Before I can say thank you Jesus , A car hits us from behind and knocks us into the car in front of us. This is great. Well at least I will be able to pay back financial aid but what about my baby?