It's weird sometimes, being so happy and hyper for no reason. You start jumping around and people give you weird looks.
Is it just because I'm an optimist, or are there just times where people are naturally feeling light hearted and happy? Who knows, I couldn't say for sure, I don't know the philosophies of life and what not. It is quite fun though, and when I am feeling that 'natural high' I tend not to care what others are seeing. I will laugh loudly at nothing while walking about, or singing horridly at the top of my lungs on the sidewalks. Whoever said ignorance was bliss had it all mixed up. Bliss is simply that, bliss, and it does not venture to the surface due to ignorance.
Ok, so maybe for some people it does, but for me, that's not the case. Being ignorant to a situation or what not makes me feel left out. Bliss for me comes from the simple things in life. Like this natural high I feel. Or the rain on the roof, my favorite music, being alone in the dark, listening to the sounds of the night. A lot of things bring me bliss, but ignorance is not one of them. Sometimes I wonder why that saying was coined. Perhaps it made sense then, but it doesn't seem to make sense anymore. The more people are ignorant to things, the more it could be hurting them.
For example, so many people don't know where, how, or when to go out for scholarships. If they are going to college, well that's important information unless they are getting their rich parents to pay for it. Plus what all with the economy as it is now. Money that people could be getting their hands on but don't know how, that ignorance sure isn't bliss. That there is stress to the max.
So I suppose this blog is particularly random, jumping from one thing to another. That seems to be how I operate a lot. Perhaps it is an OCD thing, I don't like being on the same subject for very long. It just seems to get boring. Maybe that was why stories I wrote when I was younger kept changing so drastically. That always annoyed my teachers too...
Speaking of teachers, I miss my High school teachers already. Does anyone think that is a little scary? I know most of my freshman/sophomore/junior friends think it's a little scary how much I loved school. Really, I can't help it, this year was just so... I don't know. Despite breaking up with my boyfriend of two years (which as I said before, was the best decision I could have ever made) and my parents' finalization of their divorce, this has been the best year of my childhood. (Yes I still considered myself a child while in High school.)
So I suppose I am done being random for the moment. More will come when I feel like being stupid again. : ) Stay drug free people. Cracks not cool.
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Nice blog. Even though it jumped around I enjoyed reading you different topics on issues. I just graduated and I miss my teachers too and I call myself a child because I still am. I have not learned enough yet to become an adult. I will soon but not yet. I am on the rocks with my boyfriend and we have been together for 2 years. I feel like I can't let go though. I feel like he doesn't feel as strong about me that I do for him. I do everything for him and I try my best to make him happy and I guess sometimes it's not good enough. I really feel like he is the only one for me and yeah he makes me happy but sometimes he makes me really upset and I wish I could just forget him.
At heart, I am as well, a child, and I don't think that will ever completely change. Being a kid has too many perks to it. : ) That's why I don't understand why people want to rush through High school, it seems so sad to me.
I tend to jump around with topics when I am bored or, of course, I just feel like being random. This time around it was more just being random.
I know what you mean about the boyfriend thing. I loved my boyfriend as much as I could love someone I hadn't met in person, (internet dating thing -.-) but he acted so much like a child it was insane. I'll share a little advice, you don't have to consider it, take it, read it or anything like that, but just so it is there if you ever decide to read it.
Even if he seems like he is the one, really think about it. What do you guys have in common, what do you talk about, what about him annoys you and what about him could you do without? Is he someone that's pessimistic to your optimistic, if you are one? If so, you probably have found that it is really hard to deal with. Does he have habits that hurt you? Does he cut himself, or does he smoke or something along those lines? When you think of 'the' one, do you really see him in your minds eye, or do you see alterations that grow more and more vivid, and less and less like who you think it is? My advice is to really think about it.
When he upsets you, does he try to comfort you? Or when he is going on whatever kind of rant, does he stop when you ask him to? The worst experience I had with my boyfriend was that he and some guy got in an argument on a game. I kept telling him to let it go, but he kept yelling and saying something about death like he wasn't afraid to die or something or that he would find the other guy and kill him. I got so upset, he still wouldn't stop, and it took me going off on my own to a secluded area in the game, then putting up an away message and fully getting off the computer to get him to come to his senses. I don't even know if he kept aruging until the guy signed off, or if he stopped aruging once he realized I was no longer there next to his character.
If he is inconsiderate, you should probably try and pry yourself away from him. It may be hard, and you may not want to, but in the end, it could be the best thing you've done. Now, I'm not saying break up with him, but I'm just saying, when you have had enough, tell him, tell him if he can't straighten up his act, you'll have to leave because you don't deserve to deal with his bullcrap. No one does, and I hate to see any friends go through that. Truthfully, for me, staying with a pessimistic guy was like being in a prison. He was always trying to mointor the things I did, and if I didn't talk to him on the phone, he accused me of cheating, if I became silent, he would say I didn't love him anymore and all this other bullcrap.
Uh, sorry for going on a rant there. I didn't mean to, but if your situation is anything like what I went through, you should probably reconsider thinking he's 'the one.' I thought so as well and we broke up the day of our two year.
In any case, best of luck to you, I hope your relationship turns out happier than mine did. Like I said though, I'm not complaining, I'm loving life a lot more now without him whining and crying about everything.
-AJ Gradisher
I am who I am and who I am is someone unique.
Yes, that is bliss. I love knowing that the little things in life can make me so perfectly happy. I've just recently found it to be true. I love being randomly upbeat to the point of not being able to sit still. People's weird looks just make me laugh more. I think it takes this to appreciate the little things in life, and I'm not even an optimist. : )
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Do you find it odd that you are not as strong as you once thought?
Actually, I can relate to the whole ignorance is bliss thing. The more you learn, the more you become angry with the current situation and the way people think. When you don't know very much about the world, you're carefree and ignorant to what's going on around you. Sometimes I think of how much easier life was before I discovered which end was the entrance and which end was the exit.
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