Procrastination, Fear, and Everything Else

OliveSocrates's picture

Since 2001, I have blogged on LiveJournal.com. I still do.

 But today, as I am skimming through a whole mess of scholarships that are "just for me", I see this site. And a little part of me comes to life with the hope that something that I do for fun or out of boredom will somehow give me money for my future education. But there is one problem: I am not a very political person. I'm not even vaguely interesting, in fact. I happen to like writing, and that's it. I've read through others' blogs and realized "Oh my God, everyone is so much more <insert adjective here> than me. How the heck am I going to do this?"

So I decided (just now, in fact) that I will write in this as I do in my LiveJournal, minus a few very personal, boring tidbits.

The thing is, is that I'm completely open about talking about anything at all. Doesn't matter what it is, I'll talk about it. I'll even do research on it to have a better conversation to give myself an informed opinion on the matter.

I think what I truly want out of this is the knowledge that I'm writing for myself, money for my college, and writing to gain a better perspective on others and what they feel. I like meeting new people to talk to, in fact, I look forward to it every single day.

I just hope that someone out there (and I know you are, somewhere) will find me interesting enough to talk to without me having divulged anything truly personal about myself. I suppose that will come later.

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Today was the first time I voted like ever. I dont really have many political views, but someday you just need to start. I am in a Civics class that I learn about the government and current news. I have learned a lot about the world and the way of the government. I learned to have a political view for myself because a lot of people in my class debate about the topics. I have written papers on abortion and the death penalty, but not until I started this class and voted did I think that I matter. My vote matters. This whole month I have been watching the news like crazy just to understand a little more about the government today. So yeah I know how it feels to just start to understand what to think politically. Yeah I don't know what I am going to do with myself other than college, but I do understand what my beliefs are right now. They might change but right now I figured out what I believe.

lynnjanna's picture

I'm prettty sure you stole those words from my mouth. Like really. I have the exact same feelings as you.

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