And here I sit in my computer chair, once again poring my heart and soul into type for online eyes to see. I am happy and I am sad. There so much change these days, it is hard not to be sad. I do not really have a good bond with my friends anymore. It is silly, really. I would do anything for any of them, but some how, we just do not hang out. I have thought a lot, recently, about bringing J.D. and Phoenix together, and how weird life can be. If I had not had my traumatic experience with Rae, then they would not know each other. If my parents had not gotten divorced when I was three, they would not know each other. I went back and read the last few lines of Rae's journal entry. It was last updated in mid Oct. I find that she got back into the habit of cutting herself and that she is still depressed, though she really has nothing to be depressed about. I wonder if she will ever really be happy. I wonder about J.D, Jon, and myself. The future does not scare me. It is just a curiosity that we have to be prepared for. And I will go with the flow of things and do my own thing. J.D. will go to college. His mom works at Lyon. Jon will go to college. His mom works at UACCB. However, he could still choose to run away to Massachusetts. So anyway that is my life currently
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