My view on life (a poem by me)

when i stop and stare at the things around me i think of how things could've been different if they had turned out the way i planned/ but they didn't, so i'm stuck on my own trying to comprehend what i don't understand/ but i can't, so my future's looking a little blurry/ trying to make it on my own but in the same breathe telling my mother not to worry/ cause i'm grown now and plus i can look after myself/ people tend to tell me i took after my father, but in my heart i know i took after myself/ cause i feel so alone & no one seems to understand me/ trying to live my life the way i want & still please my family/ so i'm struggling to live up to their expectations & still be who i wanna be/ my friends offer to predict my future, but i know i don't wanna see/ cause i don't wanna know who else is gonna die or who else is gonna be sick/ so i live in the here & now & hope that my high school years don't pass me by quick/ cause they've been the best years of my life, just like i was told/ cause the truth is i wanna stay young forever, can never imagine myself growing old/ cause life is hard as it is, don't need old age to further confuse it/ so if i was offered eternal youth i know in my heat i would never refuse it/ but if there's one thing that i vaule more than youth is friends/ cause they'll always be there for you even when the world ends