I dont know how many of you are christians or believe in God... but I do.
Right now im in a time in my life where lately i've felt so broken. I know these times can sometimes be used to draw closer God but its really hard when i dont understand why have the stuff thats going on in my life is happening.
I feel like everything I know and love is falling apart because i'm being seperated from everything that i'm used to, and pushed into situations that I dont think someone my age should have to deal with. How can you push past this feeling of brokeness and stop the aching?
Its almost as if the inside of me is desperate to breathe because I haven't for a long time. Its been a long time since i've truly laughed. I'm a happy go lucky person most of the time, and I laugh everyday, but I havent had a true "gosh I dont think I could get any happier" laugh in a very very long time.
I know everything happens for a reason, and everything happens in seasons, but this season has been an aginizingly long one and i've definately had times where i've felt that Gods given me too much to handle
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I know you don't want to hear this / probably already have heard this / know you should, but just hang on. I'm not that great of a Bible buff, so I can't give you an exact verse or anything, but I know that somewhere in there it definitely says that God will not let you go through anything you absolutely can't handle. That doesn't mean that it won't be extremely painful sometimes, and your life may change forever. But in the end you are still capable of handling it. God loves you - you are his child. And you are growing, which is what he wants. Try and stay close to him - God sees your heart and he knows that you're doing your best, even if you doubt yourself sometimes.
That said, sometimes we have to BELIEVE as if God will do everything and ACT as if God will do nothing. Have you considered the possibility of depression, or something else beyond your control that may be causing you to feel this way? I urge you to speak with someone, and also God. He may be waking you up to something that is not right with you physically or mentally.
Theres been alot going on in my life, so yeah i've been very sad, but I dont think id necissarily label it depression.
I'm a Christian & ya know sometimes the devil just nags at people to try and get them to turn their back on God. You just have to keep prayer harder to get your life back in order. I'm sure that something good will turn out soon to give you your "breath" of laughter back. Stay strong :)
<3 Bridget "Jingles" <3
"Love is like a war. It's easy to start, hard to stop, and impossible to forget."
Yea Amy, God knows how much we can handle and it looks like you can handle alot more than most of us could. God will never leave you or foresake you he knows that its going to be good in the end, just keep praising him and he will take care of you. And yes I know you know all of this.