This is the second time in two weeks that I've had to stay home sick because I have a stomachache. It's not a new thing - tummy hurting, twisting insides, etc. I continue to blame it on the fact that I just don't take care of myself well enough, when I know I am stressed and I know what I should and should not be eating. But then, when I can't eat anything without feeling nauseated, perhaps it is more than just controling my digestive system.
What I don't need is sympathy. "Poor thing" kind of treatment. I'm not poor, just unfortunately not well today. But I keep wondering why I don't see a doctor.
Doctor's offices, the white clean stench of the place - it's just not healthy in there. And they don't know me, you know? It's the same thing every time. Either they tell me what I already know or they tell me all the horrible things it could possibly be. I don't want to take any more tests, and I don't want to go to the clinic. I just want to be fine.
But that's not enough, to just want to be fine. I read somewhere that your health is one of the most important things to own, and that if you don't take care of yourself it is as selfish as not taking care of a family member. Get help, they said, because people care about you. Take care of yourself, they said, because you can't afford not to.
So I am torn in this place. I get so tired of the whole scene, doctors, drugs, hospitals; it's so depressing. Can I please just suck it up and move on? Although I know that pretending it's not there doesn't make the sickness go away. But I really think I'm fine.
If it gets to the point where you are on the floor crying because it hurts then get help.
Before it gets to that though:
Something that would help is chewing on ginger root which you can find at farmers markets and Oriental food shops. Then I would consider doing a quick detox to get all the nasty nasty stuff out of your body and intestines. My e-mail is heidi.pepper@yahoo.com and If your over 15 I'd gladly teach you how to detox properly and safely, your body will thank you : )
I had to laugh when reading this because I had been putting off going to the doctor. Not of a cold but because of something more serious. I finally called the doctor today to make an appointment to get tested. Why did I wait so long? Because I was scared of the results could be and how it may interfere with my schooling. Isn't that the DUMBEST thing you've ever heard? Putting myself into health danger because of what it MIGHT do to my career.
Oh - I found a new mole that is funky like, could be nothing could be skin cancer. I will find out soon.
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Sounds like you have yet to meet a good doctor. :(
I am not a doctor but if you describe your symptoms to me in detail and answer some of my questions I can give you a list of possible things it could be and how you could possible fix it yourself.
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