I have never laughed so hard all year. I also have never felt so relieved as I do now. Turning in projects, homework assignments, and take-home tests were all that I have done today, since this weekend I was SWAMPED with homework. Then walking into my fourth hour, I had the best time I've ever had-- talking about something and absolutely nothing.
I love my "best friend" Forrest in my American History class. That guy brightens my day, and never lets me not smile. He's my Chris this year, a senior from last year who moved away for college.
I spoke to Forrest today about my confusion with my future. What he told me was nothing new, nothing out of the ordinary that would make my ears perk up in excitement.
"You just have to decide what you really want to do," he said. "I don't even know what I'm going to do. . . I think I'll just do nothing." He smiled.
I was then interested in thinking up little fantasies about what he should be. We thought of Forrest "the Bum", "the firefighter", the "professional party guy", the "Policeman" (the one from Super Bad), and the "astronaut".
Like I said, a talk about something and nothing.
Parts of the hour-long conversation still flash back into my memory to let out a wide-eyed grin. Then I realied, how true it is that laughter is the key to happiness. If you can't seem to light up your own day, then close in around people who can. Today I felt a little less empty, a little more optimistic and a little more aware of how easy it is to flash some teeth and to own that ticklish feeling of laughter and joy.
