Ill attempt to make 5 years of unpleasantness as brief and informative as possible. My Daughter 28 has a drug problem it began with extasy then grew to crack and now Herion witch is proving to be the worst. She comes from a decent family has 2 sisters and a brother from me and from her father 2 brothers and a sister.
A fairly norml life until the age of 24. She married at 19 had a nice husband job beauitiful daighter got divorced and things changed. She stopped seeing her child very often and let her go to her Dads...the drug use bagan around that time...in the past 4 years she has given birth 2 3 more children all concieved on drugs, the middle 2 kids live with me and newest baby born in November was given up for adoption. We were hoping that would be the thing that kept her straigth but not so. DCF invovlment with the children on 3 occassions and she is still using drugs.All though she says shes been clean there are track marks on her arms in the beginig i was niave but no longer..aside from that being a problem in it self she has stolen close to 4000 from me bounced checks and stolen money and video game systems from her little brother
I feel i have done all i can and i am read to give up..At this point the anger and loathing i have for my own child is huge. I never thought in a million years as a mother i would feel how i do. I am not allowing her in more home nor longer doing anyhting accept keeping the babies. She can not stay at my house, use my car, not even borrow $5. This is difficulyt because we use to be very close but now i can barley stand to be around her
I feel quilty but the more i am around her the angier i get.. am i doing the right thing
Good luck. Addiction is like a demon: it's a slow seductive temptress - nay, a parasite - that, once latched on, refuses to give up. It's a problem that, though it started with your daughter's own decision, was merely dormant before.
That is a woonderful description thank you for the response
when someone is addicted nothing and noone can stop them. they have to hit rock bottom before they will see what they are doing to themselve and to their families. hopefully when they hit they still have time to get clean. i don't think its wrong for you to have those feelings. i would probably feel the same. Stay strong.
Thanks