Did you ever?
Did you ever think i got lonely?
That maybe i loved you?
Did you ever taste the tears i cried?
That fell down my face like the rain
Or the crystal pools of sorrow
I swam in, in my dreams
Did you ever stop to stop thinking
That maybe i needed you?
Did you ever wonder through my nightmares?
Just to see the horror of a broken heart?
Did you ever take the time
To look into my face and see?
See that i wanted to reach out to you
For help but, couldn't
Because i didn't think you loved me
I don't know anymore, I don't care
Things will be better one day
But, until then i'll wonder Did you ever?
Did you ever love me?
Caity Chastain
Copyright ©2007 Caity Chastain
This poem means a whole lot to me. I used to tell people it was about my ex boyfriend, a liar, a cheater, a lozer, but I've realized lately in reality, it was about my mother. She always just assumed everything was perfect, excpet me, there is always something wrong with me, at least to her.
You're fat, well i may be fat but i'm beautiful and no else, not even my boyfriend thinks i'm fat.
Your irresponsible, ask many people who know me, i am the one of the most responsible people they know.
You're lazy, you could ask many people who truly know me and know what I do, I drink 8 bottles of water a day, I exercise, play tennis, even run sometimes, and I clean the house, my room, the bathroom, my car, etc.
You never tell me anything, well if you'd listen to me maybe i would, everything i do that is important to me is insignificant to her, i get all A's (Why is that A a 91? did it drop or something??) I got to dance class and learn difficult dances and i have to have a dress that i can also wear to prom for only $75. (that dress is $75? WTH??) and i am never asked how class was, what i learned, etc. I am running for vice president of medical club, she never asks.
So basically, i've come to the conclusion that, nothing i do is significant to her, but it is to me and that's what matters.
Thanks for listening, any comments on the poem would be great! Have a good night, thanks for blogging with Caity =)
