I've always felt a little guilty for being known as the bitchy girl. I never chose to be a bitch, it's just something that happened. My friends love me for it, my enemies think I'm...well, a bitch. It's kind of a win win situation. Today I was really thinking about the reasons WHY I am the way I am, and i figured it out, I got sick of people stabbing me in the back. I used to be a sweet little girl who loved and trusted eeryone. Now I'm cynical, older, and don't trust ANYONE. There were a few people I trusted but they turned it back on me and dissed me.
For example: At the end of last school year I strted dating this guy. I'm not super romantic or lovey dovey, I think that PDA is gross. A little hand holding and hugging in public is ok but i can't stand people who are all over each other. He's the type of guy to be all over the girls he dates. Well I told him not to. I also told him that I believed love is for the person I was going to marry and I wasn't marrying him, oh, and that I would never trust him. It became kind of a joke between us that I was a bitch, and I personally didn't care. Wellllll....after we broke up we didn't talk (he tried to tlak to me but I ignored him...and told him to never talk to me again) for a while and then we became really good friends. Ok, I can be friends with a guy, no big deal. We ended up becoming really good friends and one night I told him that I trusted him. Which is a huge deal for me to tell someone that. Afterwards we hooked up, repeadetly, for 2 weeks. I asked him back out but he was like, "I don't know, you hurt me real bad and I don't want to go through that again." I promised not to hurt him again, and he told me he needed time to think about it. That was a month ago and he hasn't tlaked to me since. He told his friends that I stopped talking to him because he wouldn't go out with me. Also, he's dating this girl he just met this weekend and her and I look a lot alike. Which is really ironic, people go up to her and start talking to her like she's me all the time.
You're probably thinking, ok whatever, why do I care about the drama that goes on in this girls life? Well, I don't care if you care or not. All I'm trying to say is that everyone has reasons for being a bitch. I don't think I was that bitchy in that whole situation honestly, but even if I was it's OK. I don't feel guilty because he deserved it. I've recently started thinking seriously about becoming a nun. Boys are to complicated and to many of them aree jerks. It seems like everytime I fall for a guy he turns out to be a total jerk to me. Is it just me who ahs problems finding a guy that will at least pretend that he likes me a little and not completely use me?
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I could understand that because sometimes I can be a bitch if people don't hurry up, or don't respond to my Message Board posts for some odd reason.
I understand your feelings because I've had best friends who stabbed me in the back or didn't care. But continually calling yourself a bitch just makes it ok for boys to call you a bitch (not to quote "Mean Girls," but...). And that's not ok.
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"A cactus is the opposite of a chair. In my house you can sit anywhere but there."
well you every girl has her reasons for being a bitch some just like being mean to people but i think you had every right to be one. If that was me I probably would have yelled at him.
But I am sorry that you had to go through that sucks big time.
But one day you will find someone that will treat you great and you will be happy.