Some part of superiority is more satisfying than a mutual trust. If that weren't so, pain and hurt would be much less of a factor in people's lives.
Divorce, death, loneliness, addiction, substance abuse (drugs, food, money, alcohol, self), unrequited love.. Everyone is suffering in some areas of their life. However, few people nowadays are able and willing to share their burdens with another. Whether it's a lack of close companionship, or a sentiment of shame, the number of real, honest relationships is slowly decreasing. And with that comes more pain, more loneliness, a heightened addiction, and a greater scapegoat and opportunity for substance abuse. In essence, it's a Catch-22. But it's one that seems to have a definitive panacea.
The struggle for trust? Maybe it's a matter of patience. Hardly anyone has the willingness to continously be on the receiving end. No one encompasses the vast amount of patience needed to constantly support, reassure, and secure someone in need. After all we have our own problems. But if you give, in most cases you get. A lending ear, a sympathetic, nonjudgmental heart, and an open friendship.
But maybe it's not.
Maybe it's a matter of mystery. Uncovering and discovering a person is a type of manipulation, in itself a sort of game. Once it's done, it's conquered. And as is well-known, once conquered, its appeal lost. The fear of someone else's loss of interest has the power to stop the most lonely people from sharing their burdens. The ones with the most troubling of things bottled up inside that they're afraid to set loose to run wild. They're afraid to free themselves of the cage they've created, a cage of fear, barred with a desire of belonging.
Maybe it's a matter of pride. What isn't? The sense of superiority that comes with the renown ability to handle it all, the independence and self-determination that becomes one's reputation.
Patience, mystery, or pride.. The crux always finds its way back to one's status, the main show in today's world.
But then, perhaps authenticity is like the concept of communism. The idea in its good intent would work wonders in a perfect world, but clashed with society as it is, it's only bound to be corrupted.
I don't often tell people things about my life, simply because I don't trust people. There's a handful of people that I will tell things to, and I have spilled my heart out on occasion, but anyone beyond that doesn't get to know. It's nothing beyond the fact that I have trust issues. We're a generation, a country and a world of untrusting people.
If you don't mind me asking, what do you trust those handful of people to do? Not to judge? Or not to tell others -- and not to put them in the position to hurt you? Not to think differently of you? I know that's what I'm araid of when I say I don't trust many people.
http://progressiveu.org/160921-self-nostalgia