When working with people you get to know people.
enough said.
But what happens, when you get to know so many people, but then you realize,
that none of them know you? This is something I experience constantly. I can really like someone, or admire their personality, or abilities, or just the way they smile... But they would never notice me, or they dont know (when asked) anything about me at all. A lot of times it hurts, because I feel pushed aside, or backed into a corner by a crowd of people that cant see me... They just go on laughing, crying, and being with eachother in my presence, all the while im stuck in the middle of all of them, with no where to go...and a voice so quiet, they cant hear me. Oddly enough, I've tried to be louder. I've tried to change my personality to fit into the crowd of people. But the crowd just becomes more and more indimidating and scary.
I'm one of those people that deal with most of my problems in my dreams, so often times im dreaming about all these wonderful, cool, and amazing people...that i would love to get to know, and to know me... phyiscally hurting me. Because in real life thats how I feel. So I try and try and try to become who they want me to be. But it gets me nowhere.
In the end. It all comes down to this.
[reality]
People like me [that actually dont have anything wrong with them by the way];
are neededin the world. They are needed in that scary crowd of people. Because one day, someone might come out of that crowd... needing help. Needing someone to listen and understand, because they feel left out too. I think that God made people like me, and all those other "outcast" "shy" people- because He knows that sometimes the world needs some quiet. ;)
Just like the world needs the leaders... the "cool" people...the world needs the quiet ones too. It's a fight when you have that personality. And people blame you for not having friends, because they say it is our fault. And, technically it is. But, I think we're quite for a reason! I think its a great personality to have, and I'm FINALY glad to be a quiet, and shy person.
Sometimes when im in a group setting, and I have an idea, or a suggestion... I tell it to a friend, and usually... if that friend knows me...they'll say, "I know! how about this ----" or, they'll say "OH! Bailey had a good idea..." Because they know I need to get peoples attention, and I usually cannot accomplish that by myself.
But as a quiet person, I've had alot of advantages. I observe more than I participate, when it comes to social settings, and its actually pretty fun.
I've learned that being quiet isn't a bad thing!!!! And neither is being a louder outgoing person. We've all got a job to do in the world... us shy folk just have a different job than the rest ;).
So, to all my fellow shy people; Dont be ashamed of your personality...
being shy, is A-OK. And if you're feeling left out...just think about how much all those people are missing out on, by not hearing you ;) And one day... when the time is right, you'll have your chance to stand up and say something.
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An awesome realization to make in a lifetime.
And eloquently written.
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-Monica
As a 'fellow shy person' I have to say, you have some good points because I used to feel that way. The thing is, I don't feel that being shy is a good thing anymore. It makes one feel disconnected, isolated at times...that's not the way that anyone should have to live their life. I used to justify my shyness with excuses like; that's just who I am, that's who God made me to be, but in reality, that's not me at all. I now know that God didn't make me to be this way, to be afraid, and feel alone. That's something that fear has done to me, and God isn't fear, he is love.
-Amanda-
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i agree with you. i mean,
its not WHO we are, its just something we deal with, that CAN be a good thing. ill admit...
just a few days ago, i had a HORRIBLE time with it. i struggle alot...
But, you have to be able to understand that you can use it, and so can God.
and, though im still learning all that, i've been able to use it a few times :)
i agree it sucks, and i agree that God didnt make us feel alone, or afraid... thats just human nature. Just like he didn't make the other people, to make us feel that way. lol.
But, my point in all this, is that it can be a good thing when you want it to. :)
And God loves us all just the same, as does he have a plan for us all :)
I see where you're coming from. I like what you said about how God can use it.
To me that's saying that being shy is just where you are at now, and not going to be in the future. Same here. God didn't make me shy, but he can use that as a way to reach others, when I let go of all this fear, and I finally become myself no matter where I am, that will give others hope (and probably shock a lot of people too!). And I won't be able to give any credit to me, just Him.
-Amanda-
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