MISCARRIAGES

THAT IS A VERY TOUCHY SUBJECT FOR ME. I HAVE HAD ONE MYSELF. NOW THAT IS DEFFENITLY SOMETHING THAT IM NOT PROUD OF. BUT I HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT. I DIDNT NOT KNOW THAT I WAS PREGNANT OR THAT IT WAS REALLY THAT BIG OF A POSSABILITY. I WAS ON BIRTH CONTROL AND WELL IM STILL ON IT. EVEN IF I WOULD HAVE FOUND OUT AND WOULD HAVE TRIED TO STOP IT SOMEHOW IT WOULD HAVE BEEN IMPOSSIBLE. THE BIRTH CONTROL HAD ALREADY BEEN IN MY SYTEM FOR OVER A MONTH AND I STILL HAD A MONTH AND A HALF MORE TO GO. I BECAME PREGNANT AFTER IT. THE POISON(WHICH IS WHAT I CALL IT NOW) KILLED MY BABY. IF ONLY I WOULD HAVE KNOW, BUT EVEN THEN IT WOULD HAVE BEEN UP TO GOD IF HE WOULD HAVE WANTED MY BABY TO SURVIVE. I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN OFF OF IT AS SOON AS  I KNOW IT WOULD HAVE BEEN TIME TO RENEW IT. BUT IT WAS TOO STRONG. I WOULD NOT HAVE CARED EVEN IF THE SHOT WOULD HAVE DEFECTED OUR BABY  WE BOTH WOULD HAVE STILL CARED FOR IT. IT WAS A SAD DAY FOR US AND ALMOST TOO SOON INTO OUR RELATIONSHIP. BUT WE WERE BOTH EXCITED FOR KNOWING WE WERE AND SADDEN WHEN WE REALIZED IT HAD BEEN TAKEN AWAY. IN THIS CASE I TRULY DO NOT BELIEVE IN THINGS HAPPENING FOR A REASON. WHAT COULD POSSIBLY BE A BIG ENOUGH REASON FRO THE LIFE OF HUMAN BIENG TAKEN AWAY? AND I HAVE TO SAY I WAS DUM WELL WE BOTH WERE BUT WE AVE ALWAYS USED PROTECTION IN THIS CASE I DONT KNOW WHAT WENT WRONG. BUT KNOW I CANT HELP BUT QUESTION WHAT THE REST OF MY LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE?