Well, as all of you have probably already figured out I have a depression problem. If you are lucky enough to not have depression then you should thank God! I was dealt a very bad hand of cards. I thought that my adolescent years were the worst but now I realize that getting through college will be the worst part of my life. If I can just get through college then I know that I can make it. Money, is not God, but it may be the third most important contributer to happiness. God and faith are first, then love, and then this is where you fit money in. I have God, I can find love, and I know that college is the key! I know that there is little chance of me quitting college. But, one cannot do anything about it if they are forced to quit college. Again, here is where you fit money in. I willl get kicked out og college if I do not one, raise my grades so that I can transfer to a state school, or two, get loans and scholarships. But, what if that does not happen. I will bw out of luck, out of money, and homeless. I cannot go home because I was molested by my grandmother's husband. I can go to my mom's but one, she is currently living in a tent, and two, she is nothing but an alcoholic drug attic. I want to trust in the Lord but it is just hard now. I still have faith in him and I still know that he is here, watching over me. He is everywhere.
A Life in Depression...
By ilovethemoviepe... - Posted on May 8th, 2008
Yeah i know how you feel about your money issue. I am 17 years old and i have not got a job as yet, i search every where possible just for me to have some little changes in my pockets and i don't have to asks or beg for some. you may look at me and describe me as someone who have alot, but deep down inside i am just like you depress. yeah we are depressed for the same reason and yeah for some different reason but our faith in god is just the same. people look at me and tell me that i am not a holy person, yeah it hurts but i can't be holy to someone that i think who can make my pain and miserly. i believe in the lord just like how you believe in him and how u have faith. sometimes i just think that you have to leave lord alone and tried to get whatever u want by yourself before you say that the lord didn't help you out. i lost someone i loved at a young age that put me in this depression state. i know that i am young and stuff but you just have to go out of god reach and try to survive without him for awhile and if u can't then u can say i need him in my life.{ even if u can survive u should still thank him once awhile )
Don't ask yourself what if. It is great to think about what if but don't dwell. Yes it is very hard, but you are doing a great job. You have to stay strong and stay positive. This is the only way you will make it.
I am very sorry about the way your family is.
I have been fighting demons for 12 years. it is rough. I know this sounds cheesy but look at how beautiful the world is. When you are depressed it is hard but you have to find something worth appreciating. Like I have looked at a flower and thought how beautiful. Such a simple word yet a beautiful elaborate flower. I know you probably think this is crazy but if you don't find a neutral level where your happiness overpowers your depression then you will miss out on your life.
I know this is hard to take in when things are crappy. My mom always told me look at what I have not what I don't have. This has helped me. Try to stay strong ok? Don't go doing anything stupid either. Letting your emotions out is good and I hope you find it helpful.
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Love comments? I do too!
I know you are super stressed about losing your job, but don't let it stop you. If you get too mired in the depression, then yes, the things you pondered in this blog will happen. But if you get help dealing with all this mess, you will come out of it ok, you will get to stay in school, and you will find another job.
First and foremost, does your school have counseling services available for students? I would guess that they do. Get an appointment, immediately. You have a lot of stuff to work out right now. Times of transition can be really hard for survivors of abuse, especially.
Next, meet with a financial aid officer at your school so you have a realistic idea of your options for next year.
Third, start job hunting. It's not the easiest time to find a job, but broaden your mind while you search. Will you work retail? Office work? Food service? Coffeeshop? Bartender? Public works? People work full time and go to school every day. It may make school take a little longer, but it beats quitting school entirely.
You CAN do it. Hang in there! And seriously, find a therapist. Depression is nothing to screw around with.
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