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I wrote this several months ago. I was a bit upset with my mother.

 

You want me to be perfect

You want me to have the life you didn’t get

Yet at the same time, you hold me back

Don’t let me find out my life for myself 

 

How fair is it that your childhood was hell

But I can’t know what hell is?

You may say I don’t want to know

But how can you make that decision for me?

You’re denying that I’m growing up

Sorry to tell you, but I’ll be gone in two years

You won’t be able to tell me how to live

Oh, how will I ever survive without you?! 

 

Denial is your biggest weakness

Do you deny what you have made me?

Have I become clay enough for you?

Do you want me to bend further?

 

I can if you really want me to

After all, I can’t do anything well enough

I’ll bend further until I break

And then maybe you’ll be satisfied 

 

Why can I think I’m done being yours

But I never seem to follow through?

Why can’t I simply tell what I think,

What I think of you? 

 

I can’t believe how much I’ve taken

Without falling off the edge

Is that really what you want?

To see how far you can push me?

  

Is sixteen still too young to love

Too young to be my own

Too much a burden to let me go

Too stubborn to admit I’m grown? 

 

Eighteen’s just a number

I think I’ve proven I’m not a child

Do I have to wait to move out

To be out of your dictatorship 

 

Your dictatorship is almost over

Your time in the game is limited

You’ll be in unavoidable checkmate

Before you even saw it coming 

 

I want to be done with being your pawn

So move me a little farther across the board

Too many more moves and you’ll find that

I’ll be out of play, captured by the enemy.

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JuliaP's picture

http://www.progressiveu.org/090204-dont-miss-this-chance

Yeah, ummm. You said this: Is sixteen still too young to love

Too young to be my own

Too much a burden to let me go

Too stubborn to admit I’m grown?

YES! At 16 you are still a kid going through hormonal problems and such. Your mom nows more than you do, she is not a dictator, one day you will grow to appreciate her. I would NEVER post something bad about my mom online. I can't believe you did that. And by the way, 2 years is a long long time so just enjoy being a kid.

"Um, yeah" indeed. Because it's ABSOLUTELY NEVER possible to truly be in love before you're an "adult" by society's standards (18). Bull.

There is a time to live, and a time to die. But now it the time to break it down!

JuliaP's picture

http://www.progressiveu.org/090204-dont-miss-this-chance

Thank you for agreeing with me. NIce to see someone sees my point

TiffanySouthall's picture

Enjoy your youth its fun!! When you get older its like watching the clock when your ready for lunch. You just waiting to get to the next level.

Tiffany Southall signing out by keeping you up-to-date.

JuliaP's picture

http://www.progressiveu.org/090204-dont-miss-this-chance

I agree. Although I am sorry that we aren't siding with you. I hope we don't sound like parents to you but we do have experience and a very valid point.

sodamnbeautiful's picture

Your mom sounds like mine. I'm sorry =(

JuliaP's picture

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Whats to be sorry about? Her mom loves her, most likely, and wants the best for her.

I know my mom loves me. But especially now that I'm less than a year away from being 18, I should be allowed to make most of own decisions. Thank God my mom is actually started treating me like an adult lately.
I reminded her a couple days ago about a proposed trip next summer to Oregon with my boyfriend to visit his dad there, and I was saying that his dad would be willing to talk to her to assure her that we wouldn't be in the same bedroom or anything. Wonder of all wonders, she says, "You know, you're old enough now that you can make the decision about your sex life and I'm not going to pester you about it. I'm not encouraging it, because you're going to have to deal with the consequences." I, of course, hastened to assure her that we actually don't have sex, and that I was really grateful that she trusted me.

There is a time to live, and a time to die. But now it the time to break it down!

Poison_Ivy's picture

It sounds like your mom really loves you and cares about what happens to you. She just wants to protect you for as long as she can.

JuliaP's picture

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Thats good. But it sounds as if she was a little disappointed, by what she said. Maybe she knows you won't listen and she doesn't want to loose your friendship. Or she is tired of arguing. Still, you are so young how do you know you can trust your boyfriend? I would never do that. You don't even know the boyfriend's dad. How do you know that he is not some creepy pedophile? Or that he and his son are conspiring to do something? How do you know that your boyfriend won't get drunk and rape you with no one to protect you because its just the two of you in the car? You don't know. And these are all the things your mom is worrying about. You will cause her lots of heartache if you don't reconsider. I understand that you are young but I am 17 and young too and I would NEVER make such a stupid decision which is my mom trusts me more than yours probably does.

First of all, my boyfriend and I are both Christians and we have discussed that we are not having sex until we are married. He is also very protective and I know that if his dad ever touched me, he would rip him apart with bare hands. I most certainly do know his dad anyway; he came here when Jared graduated and he stayed here for several days, in which we did spend time around each other. My boyfriend also does not drink, and if he wanted to rape me, he would have done it by now because he's had plenty of opportunity. Just because you don't think you are capable of spending time around a guy and his family without your family around doesn't mean that everyone is. Besides, my mother has met his dad and liked him, and she trusts Jared not to do anything stupid. Don't be so judgemental, m'kay?

There is a time to live, and a time to die. But now it the time to break it down!

JuliaP's picture

http://www.progressiveu.org/090204-dont-miss-this-chance

Oh, well that does put the situation in a different perspective but it just depends on what kind of a person you are. But as for me, I wouldn't do it. Thats just me.

jnkyo07's picture

"I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do."
---Savage Garden
Joe Kreydt
Joke Right
myspace.com/jokeright

JuliaP's picture

http://www.progressiveu.org/090204-dont-miss-this-chance

YEp, and now its up to you if you will leave and let them worry sick about you or if you will obey them

yeah,you are absolutely right.

that was a really nice poem. i really the metaphor

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