A Ten Yfear Retrospect - Listening to one's self

Aug 31 1996, 1:54 am

I said I was going to keep the Piasa job to get some extra money, but there is one problem. Yes I now have money but I don't have the time to spend it. I can feel the stress starting to build up, working for about two weeks strait, but I will get some salvation. Monday is Labor day and I will have the day off, and I plan to disappear. Also I would like to go see Val sometime soon. I'm stuck working next weekend so hopefully I can get the time off the 13-14. She misses me. It is the separation and living here that is a bitch.

UNT

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There are times that I had wished I had listened to myself and stayed working two jobs and gotten out of debt. Did I keep working and get out of debt. HELL NO!!. I got more in debt and came close to losing it all. I only took me getting my heart repossessed and my car broken to clean up my act. (or maybe it was my heart broken and my car repossessed. Either way it still feel like hell.) Did I miss the girl, sure. Part of me was not there. It was the part that lifts my spirits with the way she smiles when she see you. Her eyes get a sort of twinkle in them., and you know that now how bad thing get just being with her make thing better. That is when you know that you miss someone.

As a closing note, sense I started this little project this entry has been the most difficult to write. When I fist told a friend of mine about my plans for this blog, he was worried that I would bring up some painful memories. Well he was right, but that is OK. I need to get through this. Mainly to get the closure that I did not get at the time. Soon we will be at Act 2.