I don't believe in impossible, but the world around me does. I feel that I can do all things through Christ that strenghtens me --Phil 4:13 I also understand that times will come when I need strength. I thought that I was asking for too much in an significant other, but now I see that time heals all wounds. I've always known that my persistence and assertion would pay off one day and I am happy that is was today. I define success as continually reaching for goals and taking steps that will make you happy. Money, cars, clothes, diamonds ect. make me feel like the world is distracted with not only material things but the means by which to get them. I feel imcomplete, but not because I need a relationship with a person, but because I am steadily needing the Lord to work in my life. Most people think that being a Christian is being a perfect person, but to me it is letting a perfect person show you how to deal with not being perfect. I fall, I cry and I hurt just like anyone else, but what sets me apart from others that do not have Christ is that He is my comfort, my strength and my saviour "If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year
later for staying when things are not better."
This is what is happening to me, but I know that making a heartaching decision now will save me from unfathomable sorrow later, the kind that make one question life experiences. I've encountered marriage being thrown at me from every relationship I've experienced, virginity possibly being the reason behind that one. I want intimacy, that is I understand, apart of sex but intimacy has a life of its own a part from sex. I want the intimacy that defines passion. I want to feel ultimately close to someone. I feel like Annette from cruel intentions...lol but seriously speaking I want to be loved for being Ashley... body and mind. I'm a deeper poetic being and for the first time I'd like that aspect of what is truly me to be embraced.
