Well I start this blog in a pretty good mood even though my family’s dog is dead, and we are shaken up. I really wanted to make my own little out come of death and even though this is just my personal opinion I wanted to tell people about it and since I’m a self spoken atheist it makes it very awkward to have to face mortality without hope of a nice peaceful all white Utopia to look forward too. But in all honesty I think I have become comfortable with the idea of non-existence.
Every religion and every person is uncomfortable with the idea that one day they will not be, they think that they are more important than that and that it is repulsive to claim that People in general mean nothing. In fact my whole ideal is hypocritical- I believe that in the end we will all die and ultimately mean nothing that only the species as a whole will live on, not the individual. Yet (here is the hypocritical part) we are all important in the end and should cater to our own needs, over what other people wish us to be.
So in the end I will live for myself and die with myself, and the only wish I have is to at least be able to say I miss nothing because I am content.
You see I don’t want to regret my life, and when I come to my final place I really do wish that I can say that beautiful word “Finally, I am DONE”
I’ve been saying the same thing throughout my blogs but I never believed the feeling that would come when I finally understood the true nature of death.
Think about it, you would never hurt, want, need. Nothing you would be nothing, the utter contentment without contentment, it will be amazing and you’ll never even know about it, anything we do as humans compare nothing with what we won’t do being nothing. I can’t explain it, all I can do is sit here at my computer and just think about it, I want it to be a finally of my life piled down to mean nothing. I am confounded with the fact that nothing I will ever do matters, yet comforted to know that I will at least have pleased myself.
I can’t say I’m not scared of death because im not completely confronted with it, all I can say is that if there is truly nothing out there (which I believe there is) it’s all right, I’m completely cool with it.
All I can really say is that I hope it doesn’t hurt too much, I don’t have too much tolerance for pain.
"Think about it, you would never hurt, want, need."
... In my opinion, being comfortable with the notion of one's own death is a sign of fatigue. I think the stronger that life flows through one's veins- the more charged one is with vitality- the less comfortable they are with death. If you don't get anxious at the thought of death and non-existence, then I'm not sure you have much life left to give (if you ever had much life to give at all).
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The events that cause hurt, want, and need are not necessarily experienced in that way. The strong, the spiritually healthy, those more full of life's charge, endure the self-same events with ecstatic joy.
Hurt, want, need are all states that entail a sort of "losing of the self" (which is to say, a "giving of life"). The second two are desires- they are longings that emanate out from within; energy and spirit is squandered during such experience. The first (hurt) involves the experience of a wound. Think of a literal, bodily wound: blood pours out, life pours out, and if intense enough, the entirety of life pours out (death).
The weak- those who are "spiritually" fatigued of life- can't stand the experience of such loss of self, of such giving of life. But the strong, the aggressively awake, the people over-brimming with life- they yearn to lose themselves and their "overfulness" of life; they love with all their being the events that allow them to do so.
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Don't confuse my idea of strong with a suicidal willingness to die. You can't experience the events that cause hurt, want, need (the events that entail an outpouring of life) if you are dead, and experiencing those events is all that the "truly alive" really value.
Don’t bother to visualize transition scenarios, whether it’s in the physical or not, same as your birth, you want recall it anyway, we never do!
Enjoy the ride!
You see I don’t want to regret my life, and when I come to my final place I really do wish that I can say that beautiful word “Finally, I am DONE”
That was a little inspiring, I have to admit. And so true, I concur with you the need to be satisfied before my time. I guess that's why that saying goes around to make every moment you have on Earth count.
Nice post, it was excellent and from the heart.