Have you ever lost a loved one? I have lost many loved ones. Well I mean a few loved ones. Every time it happens I feel as if time should stop. I feel like the whole world is spinning and when I hear about the death I just want to put the brakes on the world and time.
It feels like everything should just stop for one second, so my family and me can regroup or pay respect. But no it does not stop! I just have this picture in my head of all the cars and everyone just stopping in their tracks just for one minute for me to scream or something.
I think a person just needs that time to grieve and cry. All of a sudden, plans have to me made, people have to be called, traveling begins, and there is no time to stop and think. The funeral has to be perfect, everything has to be perfect. And then when it is all over, time still does not stop for you to breathe. Life goes on and it is like that person never really had an affect on time.
It just makes me think of when I die, way in the future, time is not going to stop. People HAVE to move on and live life with out me. Scary.
Sorry for the depressing post!
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I have often felt this way, most recently when I put my pet bunny down this week. It doesn't seem to apply as much when I've lost a grandparent, but that's the natural order of things, so maybe it doesn't feel as much like the world has been turned upside down. When my brother died, I was sort of out of it for three weeks, and was shocked, when I came back to my apartment in Minneapolis, that my friends all went to work, got together, went on with life while I was away. I didn't really expect them to stop living their lives; I just hadn't really considered that the world wasn't over.
Now, as I'm grieving my rabbit, I think silly things like, "Oh sad, it's the first Lost episode without Annie." The rabbit did not watch Lost, but for some reason, I felt guilty watching it without her in her cage. Her world ended, not mine.
http://www.progressiveu.org/blog/ediblewoman
Death is a part of Life.
It is ok to grieve. It is a form of closer.
I personally want time to fast forward right now.
Its sad, but true.
But time goes, either slowly or fast. and one way or the other we will want to change it. and obviously, it cant be.
so i am trying to adapt the beatles sense of mind and let it be.