So, my life hasn't changed, it really hasn't.
This morning (a morning after drinking - guess what happened!!!)
any ways he comes to my room see's "help for those with drinking problems" (a paper i got a few weeks ago) and he just looks at it and ripps it apart. Going "Why do you have this? HUH!?!" "i got it a few weeks ago when you were in jail." "well you don't need it anymore!" then he goes on to say "You acted poorly that day. You are normally so grounded and you just acted stupid. I heared from ppl you did some stupid shit that day."
And I looked at him and go "Yeah you know I am ashamed of how I acted." I said this about to cry cause thats a very sensitive topic to me... he just see's it as 'oh i went ot jail and you were a dumbass for getting ppl to help you.' As he sees me trying not to cry he goes "there you go again, crying! thats all you do, its your way to get away. " (or something along those lines: I cry to stop fighting - but in truth i cry because we are and are fights are always about that same stuff)
He told me earlyer that he had planed this great day for us - but he's not doing it because I didn't behave myself properly last night. Then later on he says he's not doing it because he doesn't feel like driving
So when we fight its all my fault - but once we are done fighting he tells another story.
He just needs to pick one
I know it seems that he's a really bad person but its not true he's really great (when drinking doesn't come into play) 12 hours before drinking is normally hell during drinking is hell and 12 hours after drinking is hell but the rest of the tiem is pretty great.
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