Under my every smile
It’s full of pain and hatred in a pile
The things I went through
The things people say about, when it’s not true
The fear of never being loved
The fear of never being wanted
The fear of hatred
I don't hate
I love
I’m faithful
I’m loveable
I am what a friend or girlfriend any one
Can ever need
Only if you can see
All the pain bottled up in me
The smiles I put on to cover them
It’s nothing new
It’s always been like this
But I will always want to know
How does being wanted feels
That’s something
I may never find out
But I know there is one who love me
And always will
That’s GOD and he does it with all his will.
Part Two
The pain within me
Many people can’t see
It’s like I’m trapped one day I know ill snap
I hold back the pain
Cover it with laughter
Close it with smiles
What else can I do?
I want to cry
I feel like I’m dieing inside
It hurts to cry at night
Then come with bad sight
My heart ache
I want to take a brake
From this pain
Many things is happening at the time
I know it’s going to cost more then a dime
I want to control these things
But I don’t know what it really brings
I prey at night for help
But it won’t help unless I take action
Like I said every smile is holding back the frown
Every laughter is holding back the tears
At times I feel like I can’t go on
The smiles holding the secrets from coming out
The laughs holding back the screaming
The sadness is something my heart can’t take
All feel is pain
Inside and out
What else is there to do?
All I can do is hold it back
With smiles and laughter
And you still won’t be able to see
The pain within me.
By Christine Toussaint
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Welcome to Progressive U!
Whatever your troubles are, give it to God because He is the one in controle. A verse to remember is Philippians 4:6-7 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
It is sad to feel this way, to have to hide everything from the world. It's a feeling I understand all too well. I am sorry that you are feeling so lonely.
Sometimes I think that if you pretend that everything is okay, then you can trick yourself into truly believing it.
Take Care!