I was really trying to refrain from posting a blog like this...but I just can't anymore
Why do I have so many feelings for people that could care less? I know it sounds super cliche and such but I'm really sick of giving so much to receive so little.
There's the person I have the most feelings for...feelings I cannot explain in the least...they go beyond mere attraction to a complete love and understanding of his views and outlooks on life which often challenge my own...I've never felt so emotionally connected to a person before...but I know these feelings aren't being returned...we aren't together so i can't expect him to think only of me but just some of the things he's been saying about other girls lately are so hurtful to me...I've actually cried...and I know it sounds petty...but I can't really help it...
It does make me question though...why do we allow ourselves to become so emotionally involved with people when we know nothing will come of it? why hasn't the human race learned that most people could care less about your feelings? but most of all...why do these unexplainable emotions control our lives so much?
I know that teenagers aren't supposed to understand love or feelings or life...but I feel like I should
I was hoping it wouldn't come to this
By vern - Posted on March 16th, 2008
I know exactly what you're feeling. I don't know why I have such strong feelings for someone when I know it will never lead anywhere. My brain and my heart are saying two different things. As much as I try to ignore those feelings, they don't go away. It's frustrating, annoying, and everyday I question why I feel the way I do, but I can never explain it. It just is. Unfortunately, that doesn't bode well for my heart.
http://www.progressiveu.org/blog/ashshepherd16
yeah...and the sad thing is that if we were physically closer we would be together...or so he says...but just saying somethings are really making me question it...like telling me how his ex was good looking before but now she's stunning and they had to refrain from cuddling when he went to see her the other day...stuff like that really hurts...even if it is true...there was no need for him to share it
I understand what you are talking about with human emotions. I used to care so much for everyone also but never recieved it back. Some people seem to care more than other's about feelings. I am very sorry that this is happening to you. I would try and tell him how you feel if you have not already. If he doesn't seem to care how you feel than he is not worth your time. I understand it is hard to hear that but I have been through that a few times. It was hard to move on but after I did I was glad because if you don't move on then you could be missing out on someone else that could share those feeling back. But I would at least make an effort to try and tell him how you feel. You shouldn't have to be physical with him to be together with him. That is wrong.
Like you stated talking about an ex really hurts. That is wrong for him to wave that in front of your face. Emotions suck but just try to stay emotionally strong and you will make it through this.
Something people should know about:
http://www.progressiveu.org/032913-lupus-uncureable-wait-what
I didn't mean like be physical...I meant we physically aren't close...like we live pretty far away from each other..which makes it harder on us anyways
my biggest problem with telling how I feel is that I'm not willing to give up that friendship...I lost my best friend of two years in a similar situation and that hurt more than keeping things to myself...I'm a huge people pleaser so I tend to let people walk on me..which sucks...but I just don't want to risk losing what little bit we do have...
yeah here's a sampling of something he said that didn't make me too happy...
Charlayne: What did I miss?
him: Oh, a big sex show.
Charlayne: Noooooooooo
him: Awww....Char, if you want, I can come up there and give you a private one. wink
Charlayne: Lukifer, as much as I appreciate the offer, you're a minor
him: No I'm not, Char....I'm 19
Charlayne: That's still too young for me.
him: No fair! *pouts in the corner*
(*note: Charlayne is 37, but looks like she's in her mid 20s. She is our resident "Zombie Goddess" because of a few certain Facebook f**k-ups. haha)
Tess: Aww....Luke, you can give me a show. wink
him: Alright, Tessiepie! I'll be up in a minute!
Sorry I didn't understand what you ment before but I do now. This is a hard choice because you don't want to lose a friend but maybe you could try to hint towards certain things to see if he likes you in that way. He really could like you in this way but be afraid like you to say anything to ruin the friendship. I know you don't want it to end in a bad way like the last time but I would try to hint certain things to him to see if he really does like you because if you don't you may be in the dark about it and always wonder.
Something people should know about:
http://www.progressiveu.org/032913-lupus-uncureable-wait-what
yeah thanks for all the support...but I think I'm just gonna give it up b/c the other day after reading that he knew something was wrong yet failed to ask or show any emotion about it...so I guess it's just a whatever happens situation as much as I dont want it to be
I understand what you mean. I feel like I'm being used or my head is being played with. I don't know what to think sometimes. It's like one moment I'm the selfish one, but the next I realize I'm being played. Life is just so twisted I just never know what the next day will bring. I just have to wait and see.