fixed emotions...meaning "Love"

       My obsession of love has come to a point in my life where I don't want to be in love with no man. The feeling I have for this guy is so strong that it has complete control over me. It's so hard to just forget about what I have done for him and having feelings for him just so that I can love another man. I want to be able to give all my love to another man without thinking of him, having second thoughts or falling back in love with him. I want to fall in love with another man because the man now doesn't seem to understand that he means the whole world to me and that I can't live without him. I have told him several times that I love him and that he's the only one for me but he thinks that the messages I send him aren't that important and that it's just a sentimental thing I've been doing for him. I told him that I would wait a life time if I could to have him but a lifetime is too long. There are other guys out there waiting for my love and I'm so tired of being blinded by love. The thought of having to forget everything about him hurts but I know it needs to be done in order for me to open my heart fully to this new person. These fixed emotions I feel in me hurts me so much that I lose site of what I'm doing including not only friends and family but my work in school! My mind starts to wonder in any class or lunch and thinking that I can never change what I'm feeling until the right time has come that I don't have feelings for him. I need to either ask him to help me forget about having feelings for him or move to another development that is as far away from his home. If you have any comments or advice for me. I'd gladly appreciate it, thanks!