Beauty is Free.

I am just like any other 17 year old girl, I've got my friends, I'm involved in school activities, I'm an officer for a club (FCCLA), I worry about my friends, what people think, what is going on Friday night, and even what I look like. It never came to me that my weight was an issues, yeah I know I'm a big bigger than most of my friends, until that year it is. I normally laugh at magazines on the "gossip rack", with their photo shopped girls. No one really looks like that, not even the girl that is in that picture. Society makes people believe that they have to be "ideal" looking, and as tiny as a pole. No girl should be that small, It's not healthy! If that’s what ever girl is suppose to look like, than count me out! I love the way I look, and even though I deal with haters and people who try to bring me down because I'm not one of those girls. I love me. No one will ever take that away from me. I have recently loosing weight, but its not like I'm planning to be a zero. I am a proud plus sized girl, no one can give me that kind of confidence and no one can take it away. When my friends tell me they need to loose weight because a someone wont date them because of their size I just want to scream. If someone has to be so shallow that they have to look at someone's outside to make their judgment call than they need a reality check. Everything that matters in a relationship is not on the outside of a human. It is their personality. I know I am amazing person both on the inside and out, and If that sounds cocky, I'm okay with it. I used to hate myself just because of what I looked like. Not based on my choices in life and my personality, but simply by what I see when I look at myself in the mirror. No one is ever happy with their bodies a hundred percent, even I would like to change things but I shouldn't be discriminated against just because my appearance is different. Everyone at some point in their life says they would love to be someone else, I know I have, ask me a few years ago and I would of told you I wanted to be like my best friend at the time. I looked up to her just because of how she looked. No one has ever looked at me and told me I look beautiful. I would love to hear that, just once in life but I'm going to go starve myself for a month just to hear that. I think people who are so superficial, that they have to break down and point out someone else's flaws just to make themselves feel better, its not healthy. Tell me, why is it when I get online or turn on the television that I always hear about people, celebrities even are going on extreme diets and ending up in hospital because they hate themselves, but yeah everyone looks up to them. It makes no sense. Everyone is so beautiful in their own way, they just have to find it in themselves and embrace it. It took me seventeen years to accept myself for who I am, and I can't believe now that I ever wanted to change who I was by taking away everything that makes me who I am away. I understand finally that I am loved by my friends and family for being who I am, and not falling into some kind of of material world, where I wait for the newest diet pills to come out so I can load up. The best things in life are free, beauty is free. It's on the inside. No plastic surgery or cosmetics can buy that for you, I just wish that one person will read this and see the beauty in themselves. I love you all, and thanks for reading.