envy is an evil thing, makes you realizes things about yourself you didn't necessarily want to know at all. I just read something about someone else and realized that I was jealous of that person. Haveing gone through a very bad experience they had written about it not for sympathy but to show strength and for their own personal healing. And I was jealous. I did not want the horrible past or the attention that they may have recieved from it. I didn't want to attention recieved from having written about it... I just wanted the support they had while they went through it.
When a person can envy it is a bad enough thing but when a person can envy someone due to an unhappy or negative experience than that should make it even worse. While I am not proud, I am also mentally torn because something tells me that it is just part of being human. The need to have the support system that the other had. I will not give a sob story but will say my life lacked the thing I envy or else I would not envy it.
How to rid yourself of envy... that is a challenge that the human kind has faced for many years... and it bothers me to this day. Its not an emotion I enjoy or experience often but it is here now and I must face it.
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