My shining star...

Humans are selfish beings...they have a reason behind everything they do ...
They talk in a specific way to get sth from you...they make u feel certain way because they need sth from you...they give because they want to take...sometime more then they give...And when you give more then you take..then you boost their stupid ego..and you veneer their insecurities...ANd they love it.....they give one finger..and you give a hand...they give to fingers ..you give all the arm..because you think...they are not used to this kind of genuine feelings..because maybe they got hurt and now are very cautious....
but we are so wrong....we are so naive to think this way....
We boost the little thing they give..and make it so big..and so special..and we analyze it..so deep..and find a whole story in one sentence..and we dream..and we see the little giving as a challenge..that pushes us and encourage us..to give more..because then they will give more...
And if they feel comfortable to give more....when you know they were hurt ...that means a lot..that means you were sth special to them..and everyone wants to feel special....

But all these games are just BS....
Immature people play with words.....insecure people need someone approval to get through the day....superficial people are good with words....and can pretend to be romantic...but these people are a waste of time to be around or even talk with....because they are not grounded..they dont know where they stand ..they are very confused..and shady....and how can a building that is shaking hold people inside....
They will never be there for you..cause they dont know what it means....they dont know what they want from life...they are never happy..or they can get happy but for a short period of time..and then become confused again....
They will leave you in a heart bit for a better opportunity..for a more exiting story...for someone that will be there to boost their ego....for someone that stands lower then them ..so they can feel bigger then you and control you..because they are insecure..they need to control you..if you are higher..more beautiful, smarter, with better personality ..they wont like that....they will either try to feed and take sth from you...(the intention instict we as human have )...or look for someone else that is as superficial as they are ....and when they find someone as superficial as they are ..they fall in a mutal attraction that they call LOVE...
Immature people...i call them boys...that have a child developed brain...and do not take charge of the situation....in other words a turn off...
Insecure people...are the worst....a pain to be with ...always controlling..
They will never support you,,,because they dont want you to be in a better place..because they are afraid you will dumb them....
If an insecure guy is with a strong talented girl..and her career keeps evolving every day..,he will become obsessed..because he needs attention 24/7...thats how he survives ...attention is his energy to get through the day....and the superficial words..are the rest of the daily nutrition....
Superficial people ...are multiplying so fast lately...they are spreading like viruses...85 % of the world has become superficial....because they love material things more then spiritual...so they will do everything it takes to get what they want....
selling themself..their body, their heart..using words they dont mean etc...
But what happens..when you meet someone that has the three qualities...(immature, insecure and selfish)---well you are pretty much screwed..you better watch out..and run..before they suck u in in their web ...tie you and poison with their words..and hurt your feelings....
I know all about it...once upon a time ..i knew somebody like that....i am glad i opened my eyes..and ran away...
i thank you my special friend that helped me understand ..that he was one of them...
now he burns in the fire...higher and higher....because i wiped him out of my life...

My weakeness is my kindness and love for everyone..that comes and knock in the door of my heart...my strength is the respect i have for my self and feelings...to not let anyone play with me....so it is very hard to stay inside my heart..i give a chance to everyone..and open the door of my heart...but few i let them in...and less then few manage to stay in...and deserve a spot inside my heart...because my heat is pure...is not a hotel where stranger check in and out as they want...

I am not looking to collect colored stones..because after all they are still stones..im looking to collect diamonds in the sand...and i know its not easy ..but worth working hard and wait until i find...
i refuse to settle down for something less then amazing...because in my everyday life i strive to become an "angel" and reach the sky...so then i can fall in love with a "star"...a star that is so pure and shine so bright....that will always be in my heart...
I know my "star" is on its way...i feel its coming...
and everytime i see a star falling...it makes me smile because i know the "star" found his "angel" in the earth...so he decided to come and take her home...they will hold their hands and fly in the sky...and only this time the "angel" will settle down,...because the star is the amazing moment she was waiting for....

to be continued...