As I am preparing to take on the transition from high school to 'real life' (the transition that i thought would never come), I'm being pushed into so many different directions. Well more like two directions. There's the 'only 3 months left! live it up!' direction...then there's the ' scholarships, housing, GPA, set yourself up right' direction. By my personal nature I'm more focused on the latter rather than the former, but recently I've been thinking which one is....better..for lack of a better word.
Just recently we got papers concering Grad Night. I immediately gave it to someone else because i immmediately told myself I wasn't going because I had more important things to do, and more over more important things to spend my money on. By the time I reached the end of my day, the amount of jeers i got after had told people that I wasn't going was really surprising. What was even more surprising was how many people swore that they were going to do everything they could to try and get me to go.
I'm in that part of my life where I want to change everything, and the adventerous and risky part of me is yelling inside of my head telling me to go to Grad Night, to chll out about the whole college deal and just enjoy these last three months I have in high school. I have very few memories of my high school career of times when I had a blast and spent all night out with my friends. So few i could probably count them on one hand. For the past two years I've been so caught up in my classes and my future that I don't really have the time or energy to be caught up in what's going on around me. I haven't purchased a single year book and don't plan to, didn't order a class ring, and never really cared about football games.
Is high school suppose to be a memory that you look back on and say "remember that time when..." or is it suppose to be stepping stones to the rest of your life? I look around the campus during the day and I see all those people who don't really care about their classes or their futures, but they are having the best times of their lives. I guess it all comes down to do I want to be happy but unsuccessful or unhappy and successful?
High school seems to be such a crucial part of everyone's lives because its that first major turning point in the story. You are revealed to so many things that seemed to just be stories when you were little. All of a sudden sex and smoking isn't really that big of a deal. Skipping class is funny and second nature to high school student.s..but looked down upon and worthy of suspension to younger kids. It's the first step to freedom. And our curiosity seems to get the best of us.
Am I going to regret the fact that I didn't enoy my four years in high school? Should I try and enjoy what I can now? Or is what I'm doing correct? The students who have party stories and skip stories...where are they going to end up in life, as opposed to me? Which story is better?
