I have not posted a blog in about ten days. I told myself I would not post a blog until I had something to say, and I didn't post anything. So now, I have something to say.
It's the holiday season again (no, duh!). But this Christmas is weird for me. It's my last Christmas at home and my dad is deployed. Sure, I've had depressing holidays before, but this one is different. I've grown up. I know I have a lot of growing up to do, but I've lost that "holiday innocence." I don't know a better term for it. I've lost the excitement, the peace, the joy that comes with the holiday. I put on my "happy holidays face" and cover up the fact that I really don't care. The only thing I'm really looking forward to about the holidays is the days to sleep in and maybe hanging out with friends.
I honestly cannot wait for the holidays to be over. I just want to skip this part of my life entirely. Of course, I still want my gifts (greedy me). And I'm sure I'll actually enjoy the time spent with loved ones. And I'll probably look back on this Christmas fondly. But at the moment, looking to it, I cannot wait for it to be over.
So, happy holidays.
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i feel the same way i only hate holidays b/c of the weather i hate hot and cold i love warm. my family is annoying and dont realize i'm to old for happy holidays. my mom insist on decorating. my sis and i hate it. we dont have any young kids over sdo there s no point. i guess it helps her. i accept it and i deal with xmas nd my dumb uncle who smells like old broccoli. so everyone gets tired of the holidays and has to suffer or deal through it.
Yeah, I'm just glad that this Christmas, we aren't spending it at home, alone. Friends make the holidays better.