Control -
found in the form of words.
hurt. cut. broken.
are you my parents - you just love me?
or are you the ones who hurt me.
dear bloggers. i am very confused. ive read so much about emotionall abuse after i was diagnosed with depression. i would have to say ive been in alot of bad places mentally. my parents are very harsh and demanding...they threaten me in all different types of ways and they truly control every aspect of my life. to the point where i have to be watched when im on the computer. i havent done anything wrong - i am a good student perfect grades- a flawless record - involved in countless activities - and my room is always clean. i dont drink - i dont do drugs- and im a leader in all aspects. ive already been excepted into college and luckly now i feel i have a way out (other than before when i only thought of suicide) my mother uses harsh words, calls me names, locks me in my room and has taken away all the phones in our house. she justifys her actions by telling me that she loves me and its for my own good - she doesnt let my friends hang out with me much anymore and she has even hit me before when i stood up to her. she says that im a brat and when i dont get my way she has to punish me. i am a senior in high school and she treats me like im five. i still cant watch tv shows with out her okaying them first. she takes away my cell phone everyday and looks through my call log. she even called my school to cancel my internet account there. i dont know what to do. enough is enough but HOW DO I KNOW WHEN ITS ENOUGH>? i know all kids my age have problems with parents who want to control them....thats what i keep telling myself - but things are gettting - well - dangerous for me emotionally. ive started doing things to myself to feel some form of control. things i know i shouldnt do. am i over reacting? do i need to "snap out of it" am i seriously "a selfish little bitch" who needs to "be put in her place before she fucks up big time"? i need some advice.
im hurting
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You should talk to a counselor at your school. They should be able to help you. I doubt a shool counselor can do anything to curb your mothers behavior, but it'll at least give you someone to talk to. My parents were emotionally abusive and I lived for the day I turned 18. Once I left for college I didn't look back. It took a lot of years, but I'm much more happy now than I ever was then.
I haven't had emotional abuse from my parents but i kninda understand what you are saying. My best advice is to stay strong and keep in mind that some day soon you will be on your own. Then one day you will be able to look back and say you made it even without your parents making every decision for you. As for being selfish dont worry. Everyone needs to complain about their parents its normal.
you should consult someone with greater experience....
im working on it. i waited for a few days and journaled some times inwhich i felt hurt and shared them with someone from my school. we are looking in to options. im nervous cuz college is right around the corner.
College will be your way out. It was for me.
i am going through the same exact thing that you are rite now!!!
im a seventeen year old senior
and my parents treat me like my 8 year old brother
its not fair and even are parents know that
but there trying to keep us from making the same mistakes that they did in life...
i know it sounds crazy they do love us and they dont want us to have a good life
but they just dont get that the more they push us and bug us
that were just going to rebel.
this is how i handle it
for me graduation is in less than three months
im moving out two days after i graduate and never looking back
you have to focus on the positivive things and all the things that are infront of you.
i know it SUCKS EXTRMEMLY that we cant have a good relationship with our parents know but thats their faults not ours.
were trying as hard as we can
and if they cant see or accept that then its there loss and not ours
[ashiepoo]