I am aware that this is not the best. But it means something to me.
Here, take these and you'll feel better
Like little capsules can change my life?
Lying on a couch wrapped in a blanket
I pray today you won't call my name
But everyday is the same
It's 9am and there you'll be
A little cup of pills
With the questions to follow
Different colors, different shapes, different sizes
The same order everyday, same answers everyday
The same capsule so carefully tucked under my tounge
Well, how do I feel today?
Same as all the others, I'm fine
Liar, liar, liar, liar, liar
She just wants to go home
And then it's back to the musty couch
That had been inhabited by so many before me
But for today, it's mine
A sanctuary for my tiny body to find some peace
Here, it's nighttime, just one more pill for you
But now I've got a shower, and I'll break all the rules
Just don't watch as I sneak into that bathroom
Where my miserable day comes out, along with that dinner you made me eat
I am in control
And I am fine
Liar, liar, liar, liar, liar
She just wants to go home
And there's that last bright capsule
Half dissolved on the shower floor
Amidst all her suffering
No one is going to fix her
I won't let you
No one is going to fix me
She won't let you
Just give me some syrup and knock me out to sleep
Tomorrow it's the same
and she's fine, she's fine, she's fine
I just wanted to go home
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Thank you for this post. you're not alone