That was the strangest feeling yesterday. It was as if I had no emotions or connections towards him. He was just another person I might meet on the street--anonymous, distant, meaningless to me, no emotions, no memories, nothing. The words coming out of his mouth had absolutely no meaning for me, and any sympathy towards him just vanished.
When he actually mad eye contact, there was nothing there. They felt cold, lifeless, and strange. For something that used to be so special to me, it was...just...gone, I guess. But in reality, it did not even exist. Because this person did not exist. The emotions he pretended to have did not exist. And the memories we had did not exist. All those places we went, all those people we met, all those things we experienced--they were not with HIM. They were with someone who was made up, imaginary.
I cannot love him because I never did. I loved someone totally different. I can't miss who he is now because I never knew him. And as far as I'm concerned, you cannot miss someone you never knew. And that's why I did not feel anything towards him. Just emptyness.
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I know exactly how you feel. I never dated the guy, but had a massive crush on him for at least a year. He seemed sweet, and we would talk on the way home from the bus, and I thought he liked me, or at the very least thought of me as a good friend. I guess I was wrong. He found out that I liked him, and less than a day later, literally the entire grade knew, and he was ignoring me completely. I don't think we've spoken since, and he would never admit that we were once friends. Does it somehow make him cool to diss me in this way? I don't know, but I knnow he's not the guy I used to think he was.
Hey,
I was just wondering, this man of whom you speak, is he military? The way that you talk about not lovig him because you never did, I have been there. When my ex came back frome basic training, he was a totally different man, and that man, I never knew him. I never loved him.
I can definitely get where you're coming from. When you think you know someone or have formed a bond with them, and they break that bond, it seems as if that person is meaningless and a waste of time. I do try to forgive and forget and still value that person as a human being, but how can you do that when they have made such an egregious error that humanity as a whole would look down on. I guess major lesson you and all of us could learn from your interaction is that we should never get to a position where we don't really know ourselves and we become that nothing. That person who you spent time with yet that time was meaningless.