In later elementary school, we watched a video about eating disorders. I made a promise to myself that I would never develop one. I also made a promise to myself that I would enter 7th grade thin. Neither promise was kept.
I went to camp over the summer before seventh grade. I think this was the first time I really felt "fat" or "ugly." I had a beautiful best friend who came to summer camp with me. All of the boys were entranced by her. There was a few other gorgeous girls at camp that summer who were always sought after. I was not made fun of or ridiculed by the boys, just ignored.
Another blow was the pictures from camp. There is one picture that is forever burned in my mind. I am wearing a tank top and was dancing with my friends. My stomach stuck out over my jeans, making what seemed at the time to be the hugest beer belly possible.
I started only wearing only flowy peasant tops and baggy jeans, avoiding anything that gave the slightest hint of a figure.
I also had very bad eating habits. I hid Oreos in my room and snuck into the bathroom to eat candy bars so my dad would not see how much I was eating. I wanted to develop better eating habits, and would try to test myself to see how long I could go without eating, but this would just lead to binges.
I did not develop a full blown eating disorder at this time, but my confident exterior had started to crumble away. The confidence I had fell away as moer of my friends got hit on, leaving me as the "fat friend" in the background. Self-esteem that had once been damaged, but still oresent, left me completely. All that was left was a little fat girl who had lost all hope. .
I used to never eat at all and lost almost 50 lbs I had an eating disorder. I was made fun of constantly and like you my friend always got the attention from boys. Feel good about yourself and if you want to lose weight, lose it the right way. Exercise and eat pretty decent. Don't totally cut out food you really love because that will make you want them even more, then binge on them. Cut fat down and add vegs that you like and fruit. Who cares what everone thinks it's YOU that has to be with yourself for the rest of your life. If someone really likes you they will you like as you are. Your friend may be getting all the attention now but this will change. Thanks for sharing your story.
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http://www.progressiveu.org/032913-lupus-uncureable-wait-what
I used to never eat at all and lost almost 50 lbs I had an eating disorder. I was made fun of constantly and like you my friend always got the attention from boys. Feel good about yourself and if you want to lose weight, lose it the right way. Exercise and eat pretty decent. Don't totally cut out food you really love because that will make you want them even more, then binge on them. Cut fat down and add vegs that you like and fruit. Who cares what everone thinks it's YOU that has to be with yourself for the rest of your life. If someone really likes you they will you like as you are. Your friend may be getting all the attention now but this will change. Thanks for sharing your story.
Something people should know about:
http://www.progressiveu.org/032913-lupus-uncureable-wait-what