In today's society, if you look at every commercial, advertisement, and television show...they all have one thing in common. A female in it, that is impossibly skinny, and has the proportions most near that of a barbie doll. Now studies tell us that the average women is a size 12 to 14. But that certainly doesnt stop adolescent girls, like myself to constantly wish that they were thinner. Maybe if you lost a few pounds that guy in your math class who doesnt even know your name, might just become interested in you. As a society we are obsessed on how we look. In middle school I was always told, "why dont you go to the gym" or "should you really be eating that?". I was around 11 when I heard about eating disorders in health class. You could same I became somewhat obsessed. I feel into a habit that would last me until my sophomore year of high school. I became bulimic. I didnt like what I was becoming, but I couldn't seem to stop. I started making myself throw up because it gave me a sense of control in my life, all it did was take all control of my life away from me. I grew depressed, and I almost wanted someone to find out, I couldnt bring myself to tell my parents, but I wanted them to know. I wanted someone to know how much I hated myself. I finally broke down and told my mom and she got me into counseling. I was actually willing to go, I was tired of what I had become. I wont go back to having an eating disorder, but sometimes still it is a battle with myself to realize that I am okay if I am not as skinny as Nicole Ritchie or Paris Hilton. Through the help of my amazing boyfriend, my parents, and my counselor Kristi, I have realized something. Society is wrong. As long as you are healthy, who cares if you are a size 2 or a size 10? You have to learn to love yourself regardless of your outer appearance. Looks may get you invited to the party, but its your opinions, your beliefs, your values, and most importantly your personality that are going to keep people intrigued and interested in you.
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Tanya,
I'm glad that you went for help. I personally have the same feelings about the commercials with the same super thin girls who sometimes look that way because they have an eating disorder. I read an article the other day about how the department stores and the like are “jumping on the bandwagon
I agree with your thoughts!