18 scary

I just turned 18 on march 16 and it is really scary I dont know what to do or what to think its crazy that i am almost on my own to go out into the world and make my way when it seems like just yesterday that i was in elemntary running aroung with all my friends on the playground playing dodge ball and tag and now I am out working and driving around with thoes friends about to go off to college this fall for police science at hawkeye community college to get my 2 years associates degree and maybe at that point in time transfer. The marines are also constantly calling me trying to get me to join i like the fact that they pay for all of your college and when you go to colege through them you do not need any gen ed classes. While they pay for your college they are also paying for your living wich a big cost of the moving out lol, I have thought about it so much and it is driving me crazy every one at school says I should that I would be great in the military (scary me with a gun...) lol:) and even my teacher say that i should including my wrestling coach who has been in the marines for the last four years our wrestling practices were basically parts of basic training that he went through we usually ran about 3 mile just for warm ups it wasnt very warming seeing how we ran out side for it all winter. its funny seeing 15 wrestlers running down the road (our school is in the country surrounded by highway) in sweat pants then you see me running with my shirt off in just a pair of pe shorts im like pure red cant feel ne thing and laughing cause of the people driving by's reactions. I dont know if i should enlist or just do college then maybe think about it afterward. well this is all i can think of writing rite now i am gonna go tty all l8tr cya's