I stayed home from school today. In my whole high school career, I have never had this many absences. I usually love school, and now I dread waking up in the morning. Senioritis? or more. It scares me to think that it could be something else. What if something really is wrong with me?
I don't feel like myself anymore. Maybe I'm just going through a funk? but if that's the case, this funk keeps reoccurring. My parents think I'm on drugs, or doing something else unproductive. I can't control what I say anymore, or how I feel. When I'm around them, I have intense mood swings. I find that I no longer care about school. Am I subconsciously giving up on life? Could it be the unmotivated people around me? I also am nervous about money. The job I have no does not provide enough hours to get me through college, or loans. Maybe I'm just stressed about things I have no control over, hence my mood swings. I don't know. I'm scared. I need to get my life on track, yet I have no idea how.
It may be because I haven't been eating right. I've been neglecting my food groups. :( All I've been eating lately is like, junk? Nothing with nutritional value, yanoe? Hmmm. That could be one thing. It's getting nicer out, so I'm going to start busting out the walking shoes. I will be alright, I will make myself better. I just needed to get it out. Man, this blog stuff is life changing.
