I am sick of thinking about college. Everyone around me knows where they're going and what they're doing for the rest of their lives. Or, at least, they have some idea. I am still floating around in the nothingness of choices. It's frustrating.
This is probably what I hate most about going to MSMS (Mississippi School for Math and Science). Everyone here is so focused all the time. My peers are people who have had dreams of being a doctor or an engineer or a world class scientist since they were in diapers. At times, I feel so out of place. My roommate is pushing the college thing, and she's only a junior. My best friend, Sarah, has stacks and stacks of paper around her room detailing colleges and scholarships. Yet I am still in the stages of gathering information and trying to decide what I want to major in and what I want to learn.
I do know that I want to get out of the state. Mississippi is not where I want to be stuck the rest of my life. I know that I want to be some type of engineer. I'm leaning more and more towards Civil or Mechanical engineering. I want a small college, something like I have now. I know I won't be able to find a school that's less than 300 people big, but I want something close. I want small classes and close friends. Truly, what I want is to pick up my high school and drop it into a college setting and just be done with it. I love my teachers, I love my friends, I love the dorm and the academic buildings. Leaving this place will be one of the hardest things I will do.
I suppose it's back to the grind of looking for a college that suits me and my needs. Why does this seem to come easy for everyone else?
• 
• 
• 
• 
• 
• 
• 
Take it slow. College seems absolutley overwhelming at first, but it all works itself out. I promise. Another thing, you don't have to know your major in high school. If you have an idea - THAT'S GREAT! But trust me, people change their majors all the time - and eventually, everyone finds out exactly where they want to be.
Don't stress about it too much!
x: Sammy :)