I Was Molested

Scary, I know. It's still hard to talk about my experience. I was three years old when it started, and I can remember every single incident and detail after that first time. What's worse is that the person that did this to me is my brother, and he is ten years older than me. He continued to touch me inappropriately until I turned eight. When I turned eighteen, I finally mustered up enough courage to tell my parents what had happened. My counselor expected them to be supportive; I expected less. My mother cried and yelled, "Why didn't you tell us before? You just want attention for waiting this long! He was just a kid, too!" My step-father promised that he would get me child therapy, but his promise soon evaporated like the tears that had fallen down my cheeks that day.

I know why my brother did what he did. First of all, my parents left him to raise us; I honestly don't remember many times where my parents where home and not busy doing something other than paying attention to us kids. Secondly, we never received a "sex" talk, apparently it was taboo for them to explain about the "birds and the bees". So, during the time of his hormones, there was the temptation, no one to stop him, and no moral consciousness to prevent him. By the time he got old enough in school to realize what he was doing it was already too late, his habit was established.

This doesn't make what he did right. I know that there are a lot of girls and guys out there like me. I was so angry for so long, and I didn't get therapy soon enough. My advice is to tell someone. When my parents turned away, my teachers and close friends helped. The most important thing is to find peace of mind, and, we can't do that on our own.